ironically sweet.

because you need the right words.

2010-10-03T04:51:00.000-07:00

99 things.

2010-09-12T23:02:00.000-07:00

the 50s. pin-up girls. fairytales. mannequins. Tim Burton. breathing. girls with pink hair. Las Vegas. burning. skeletones. Francesca Lia Block. zombies. the color white. pansies. B-movies. serial killers. cupcakes. books of baby names. The Misfits.

Audrey Hepburn. 'live fast, die pretty'. Earl Grey tea. french manicure. Sid and Nancy. breathing. Barbies. this girl. eastern europe. Yugoslavian ultra-violent movies. Weetzie Bat. Wildfox Couture. mori girls. glitters. kittens. Dance Dance Revolution. silent movies. the 40s screen divas. mermaids. flowerboxes.

princesses. lolitas. Vampira. A-line skirts and dresses. lace. smoothies. eyeliners. leather. antique keys. Chanel hand bags. sarcasm. faerie houses. shiny headdresses. poems. Gala Darling. sunsets. wishes. long, bony fingers. cheesecakes. Marie Antoinette.

drive-ins. rollerblades. bright colored lipgloss. velvet. horror punk. dolly kei. ribbons. Dia de los Muertos. studs. combat boots. the 70s punk scene. platform mary janes. patterned stockings. old wallpapers. My Chemical Romance. pretty boys. fauxhawk. walk in closets. thrift stores. Cleopatra.

funerals. Wednesday Addams. fireworks. stargazing. books. hopes. hopeless romantics. daydreams. flower fields. trinkets. treasure chests. jewelries. precious stones. anything faux fur. slides. swings. circuses. carousels. cotton candies.

get lost.

2010-09-06T21:27:00.000-07:00

s o r r y .

I know. I haven't posted anything for weeks. I know. But my laptop is broke && I'm going to my grandma's for two weeks. I know. I need to blog more. Less tweeting, more posting. Sorry for not being here.

See you soon, lovely beings.

101

2010-08-12T20:26:00.000-07:00

if you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with. you are falling in love with my insecurities, & my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. you are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved & appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be too clingy.

you fall in love with my bruised little heart, my hopes & dreams, & how i’m a hopeless romantic at heart. if you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate & all my imperfections & my perception that love is just another bullshit.

you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when i’m with you, the way i’ll text you in the morning just telling you i hope you have a great day. you’re falling in love with the occasionally retarded or thought-provoking things i say, & the way i blush when people ask me about you. but to me,

the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me,
despite my thinking that it is impossible.

another fluorescent night.

2010-08-04T06:13:00.001-07:00

HAI GUISE.
OK FROM NOW ON I'M GONNA BLOG IN FULL CAPS. or not.
So I literally have no idea what to post here. Rarely blog these days, been pretty busy & my life is getting very boring. Not really. BUT SRSLY I HAVE NOTHING TO TALK ABOUT.

All Time Low, live in Tennis Indoor Senayan. Tonight. Right now. && I am not interested at all.

I pity those kids who think they're so cool when they actually knew nothing. Smartass are sometimes very amusing.

A7X's Nightmare came out like few days ago && due to my very awful internet connection I still can't illegally download that one. Ok don't shoot me just now. Aaaanddd hey can't wait for Katy Perry's new baby Teenage Dream && The Birthday Massacre's Pen and Needles :DD

Me & Aho are thinking about making a YouTube video. He's thinking about doing Usher's OMG dance moves. I'm thinking about doing each other's makeup & hair. He disapproves. FML. Whatever, one day we'll be famous AND NOT JUST IN TEH CYBERWEBZ.

There. But ours will be much better & way more hilarious :DD

anyway Lenny, put "Zara tastes like rainbow" in your txt if you read this. xD

SMA 6 Surabaya

2010-07-25T01:41:00.000-07:00

One month with no new post. Now what.

Okay so I've been pretty busy with school & stuff, & I'm being a lazy-ass as always so yeah xD I always have the time though. I missed a blog contest like few weeks ago & here I am, mourning. Or not.

SO OMG MY FIRST WEEK IN HIGH SCHOOL WAS TERRIBLE.

Yes, Terrible. With a capital T. & bold letters. Like whoa. I know people would just come up to me & say "hey it's your FIRST week & this will change soon." BUT THAT DOESN'T HELP. I mean, yeah I know this is the first week of the so-called "best part of your life" & I have no close friends. Yet. I think my first impression's just not convincing enough.

Aaaaand yeah. The kids in my class are pretty bland. I sit next to this girl I've ever known since 7th grade, & she's gorgeous lulz. & there's one very very extremely annoying slut who thinks she's better than anyone else. Did I say one ? Oops. Correction : there are actually three of them. One alpha, two clones. Yeeeoooww.
Somehow not having a close friend (yet !) feels pretty good. I bring coloring books & color all the pages on recess. And crossword puzzles too. It feels good to do simple little things you like by yourself. I'm not being all alone or something; I know a lot of kids in my school & they're really nice to me but I still can't find someone I can share anything with so yah I'm fine.
The seniors, from 1-10 scale, 7. Pretty average. Some of them are too nice to me :DD>it's about time ahahahah.
So yeh, tomorrow's Monday & I'm gonna start my second week of highschool epically. EPICALLY ! or not. OR YES !
Things to do as soon as possible :

Make new friends
Do homeworks (or copy other's)
Go to the theatre play
Messing around
Have fun

It's about time. ♥

nemesis

2010-06-26T03:20:00.000-07:00

i want to breathe
into you; force the oxygen
past your heart and into your
lungs and i want to make you
alive and real and touchable
again.

.

i wake up screaming
with your breath on my face,
like dirty dewdrops on grass.

.

you always smell like
death, why is this?
i said you are my life; that
you should smell like life
and spices and blueberries and
lilies. you said no, darling; i’m
not your life, but i can be your
death.

.

we will never
have an
ending,
will we?

---

guess who am i talking about.

a simple hello.

2010-06-22T02:19:00.002-07:00

l
I just wanted to let everyone know that I'm doing well. I've learned to accept myself. I can look in the mirror and say, hey, you're beautiful, and mean it. & it's one of the most amazing feelings in the world. I hope you know. I hope you understand.

My writing feels more free, although I'm in a block right now. I still have bad days, & bad moods, but overall, I'm getting much better. I'm trying to be my own reason to be okay. Trying to be strong for myself.
I'm trying to need myself.

It's a challenge. but I'm getting there.

I deleted my formspring account. It feels so much better to stop thinking about haters out there. I'm not afraid of the public opinion changing my own view of myself. after I'm confident in my own opinion, I will put my opinion before the public's - then I will come out of hiding. I hope you understand.

I am currently taken as of May 24th. I'm very happy in this relationship. Even though he's a total jerk sometimes & I'm a whiny bitch, I'm happy. He makes me feel beautiful & amazing & wonderful & anything I've never thought I am.

I hope all of you are doing well. Tell me about what's new in your life, if you'd like. & again, I'm sorry for being gone. But it's what's best for me, you know ? & I have to do it. I have to do what makes me happy & okay.

I hope you understand.

i need to distract myself.

2010-06-08T01:56:00.000-07:00

VISIT ME BITCHES !

fragile - handle with care.

2010-06-01T23:23:00.000-07:00

Hi guys, it's been weeks. May was so rude to me. Dramas, heartbreaks, losing friends, haters, my life screwed up. Let's just hope June will treat me well.

I'm not that much on the internet these days. I'm tired. So fucking tired of kids trying to mess around with my life. Enough. Harsh words break my heart. I'm easily offended. I fear strangers. I'm just another 14 year old girl, not even 15.

I don't think I'm a whore nor a bitch. I did not steal anyone's boyfriend or something. But I'm fucked up.

Just please, I'm scared. I don't wanna lose friends. I don't want to be a lonely, old cat lady with 50 cats. I let people walk all over me so just I don't lose them or be alone. Someone kidnapped me when i was 10. There I said it. This is not about that worthless internet drama. This is my life. Stop messing around with it. No, I'm not mad at you kids. I'm just scared. Please. Stop.

Sorry for everything. Including messy grammars && tears on my keyboard.

click your heels and wish for me.

2010-05-15T08:27:00.000-07:00

Hello cupcakes.
This week has been pretty much relaxing. By relaxing, I mean lazy. Hell, what would you do if you don't have school anymore for pretty much a month && you have no money to go somewhere awesome ? Stay at home. In my case, with Mom && Dad since my Dad works at home. Le sighhhhhh. Just wish me luck. I don't want to die from boredom.

Anyway, I kinda lost my Twitter appetite (that doesn't even exist, I know) these days. Tumblr is taking over my cyberspace xDDD click here to read && see && watch && listen to my little treasures.

The good thing is, I'm on my way to get over you. Fuck you self. How many times you have said this ? But this is, this is different. Let's say, I'm taking this not too seriously. Or at least I'll try. OH OH OH && IT SEEMS LIKE PANDORA IS PREGGY. I'M GONNA HAVE KITTEHS, BITCHES ! Envy me !

The bad thing is, I'm going remove you from my Facebook friend list, cut off all communication access (including internet) this week && I'm going out of town. Alone ♥

(but these are actually pretty good, me thinks.)

Say no to self harm. Say yes to harming others.

UNAS

2010-05-08T00:09:00.000-07:00

36,65
dan nanti saya masuk SMA mana.

tonight i'm gonna give you all my love in the back seat.

2010-05-04T18:27:00.001-07:00

HELLO LADIES && GENTLEMEN.
2 days to go, pengumuman Unas. Rasanya udah mau meledak. What if aku nggak lulus ? What if nilaiku jelek banget ? What if nilaiku mepet standar ? What if... fuck it.

OH OH OH LEMME INTRODUCE YOU TO NANCY.

Her name is Nancy. Pink Samsung B3310. I'm too lazy to write the specification && review && shit but I'm not here for it. You have Google, bitch. I am so happy I could die. Okay I'm not here to talk about her, though.

Minggu ini saya menjadi pengangguran. Sekolah libur. Uang menipis. Ga bisa jalan-jalan. Satu-satunya hal yang bisa dilakukan adalah duduk di depan laptop dan menggosip di internet. So fucking useless. Tapi daripada aku mati bosan atau apa ini masih mendingan ya. Mana nunggu hasil Unas itu... gawd.

I'm being a drama queen these days. Mulai yang cuma nyindir-nyindir gitu sampe yang bener-bener insult. Rasanya melegakan dan membahagiakan. But I need one more taste; REVENGE. One sweet bitch. Someone blocked me on Twitter && I need to... AVENGE MY GHOST WITH EVERY BREATH I TAKE, I'M COMING BAAACK FROM THE DEEEAD, WELL I'LL TAKE YOU HOME WITH ME; I'M TAKING BACK THE LIFE YOU STOOOOLEEE !

Nggak ding.

Dan karena masalah dendam itu akhir-akhir ini aku banyak nyetel Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge. Ah, I miss the old MCR. Dengan lirik menyentuh dan judul lagu yang panjang. Dan menginspirasi membuat rencana pembunuhan. Nggak juga sih. But I really need to get this feeling out of my dead brain. *shrugs*

Dear you, I know I'm a total bitch. I know I talked shit about you && that boy you call, what ? Your boyfriend ? Okay. Yeah I did. Oh wait, I still do. BUT YOU,BITCH YOU ARE MY FIRST && YOU DON'T EVEN LIST ME OR SOMETHING INSTEAD YOU BLOCKED ME ON TWITTER. One day, I'm gonna stab you or something. With a lightsaber.

puking words.

2010-05-02T03:02:00.000-07:00

someone must really love me because they lined my insides with gold,
velvet silk && it feels so nice just to have everything inside cooperate.
everything's so nice as lightening is tucking hair behind my ear, smiling.

i just want to call everyone my beautiful baby, darling, sugar but i fear
coming on too strong, but right now i'm strong like a cup of coffee &&
everyone loves coffee, don't they ?

i don't wear my glasses because it's so much easier to judge the world
&& i just want everything to stay in this blurry hazy--god i love it so much.
i love everyone so much just please you don't even have to say you love me too
just please don't ruin this for me.

i'm just typing. i don't own any of these words; they've all been
said before. every single line is just copy && pasting myself onto this
page. i wish i had a type writer so i couldn't be so obsessive about
my mistakes.

not tonight.

no mistakes tonight. i wished on eleven eleven i'm a walking cliche but
it's okay because i meant to do it obviously. someone laced my drink,
they must have. i must be drinking from a goblet of euphoria. i don't think
i can hear the music but it's white-washing my bones clean dry, i can
breathe.

fuck me i can breathe.
and this is what it's like.
my sinuses clear &&
i'm alive.

i'm alive for now.

hari Kartini

2010-04-26T05:40:00.001-07:00

HELLO MY DARLINGS.
Maaf ya saya semakin jarang ngeblog karena saya semakin malas dan internet tidak bersahabat. Oh I'm now on Tumblr :D jadi tambah jarang blogging disini deh.

kebaya DIY, songket Palembang, Versace heels.

Anyway kemaren di sekolah ada acara Kartinian :]
Jadi suruh pake baju daerah gitu, terus aku pake kebaya. Dan heels. Dan make-up. Hore ! Tapi ujung-ujungnya di kelas aku yang benerin make-up dan rambut dan lain-lainnya teman-teman saya. Terus ada lomba-lombanya gitu. Awalnya aku mau ikut lomba merangkai bunga but since mesti bondo bunga dewe, aku ga jadi ikut deh.

BUT I DID LOADS OF MAKE-UP && HAIR.
Dan mengajarkan Aho cara berjalan yang baik dan benar diatas runway. Jadi ceritanya dia ikut lomba fashion show sama Dindot dan sama sekali tidak bisa berjalan di catwalk. Saya sebagai tim-sukses-lomba-fashion-show akhirnya mengajarkan cara berjalan yang baik dan benar. TERUS AHONYA SUSAH BANGET DIAJARIN. He did great though :3 && he looked hot with baju daerah. SRSLY.

i did her hair && make-up && mengajari mereka berjalan xD

Dan sekarang belom jelas Aho sama Dindot menang atau kalah. Hidup Zara !

stop calling stop calling.

2010-04-15T05:37:00.000-07:00

HI THIS WEEK IS SO FUCKING DEPRESSING.

Pertama, HP saya hilang. Kedua, sekolah menyiksa saya dan teman-teman dengan sangat keterlaluan. Ketiga, my love life is getting worse. Keempat, HP saya hilang. Kelima, HP saya lenyap entah kemana.

DUDE I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT MY GODDAMN PSYCHE.

Psyche was the name. Tidak banyak yang tahu namanya. Merah, cantik-- dengan berbagai macam diamantes di punggungnya-- walaupun sering saya banting-banting. Sony Ericsson K610i. Umurnya 3 tahun lebih. Sahabat setia saya yang selalu menemani saya. Sebelum hilang sempat rusak, diservis dulu seminggu. Penuh dengan portfolio kehidupan saya selama 3 tahun terakhir. Foto, sms, lagu, nomer telepon, semuanya. Dan dengan gampangnya hilang.

Waktu itu hari Senin. Aku habis bimbingan di sekolah jadi pulangnya agak sore. Di kelas aku sempat tweeting sebentar sama nyetel MP3. Pulangnya aku naik angkot soalnya ga ada antar jemput. Waktu nunggu angkot aku mau liat jam, HPku ga ada. Aku kira ketinggalan di sekolah. Aku balik lagi mau ambil HP, ternyata ga ada di kelas. Setelah panicking-yelling-bitching for about an hour, aku pulang naik angkot. Secepat itu.

Aku ga bisa nangis, sudah terlalu sedih. Nangisnya malah pagi-pagi di kelas. I mean, kayaknya aku ga bakal beli HP lagi sampai entah kapan. My fam is not that rich, kay ? Sementara yang lain heboh pada minta Blackberry, iPhone dll ke dadddynya aku nabung mati-matian beli Corby yang 1,3 juta aja belum tentu dapet. Rasanya mau mati; atau mungkin sudah.

So yes kids, I'm not gonna talk much here. My heart broke && I feel like lamenting all day long.

peace, love, caffeine,

P.S. Keep your phone safe. Everywhere. You don't know when you're going to lose it.

stomach, meet butterflies.

2010-04-09T18:53:00.000-07:00

HI KIDS.

How long has it been ? Forever ?

Oke bulan ini aku bakal jarang blogging soalnya sekolah menyiksa saya setiap hari. Unas beres, sekarang tinggal ujian sekolah sama ujian praktek. Dan minggu depan saya tetep pulang sore seperti biasa. Padahal kan ujian sekolah. Kayaknya ntar kiamat juga sekolah saya ga bakal libur.

Anyway yes, things happened.

I let go. I fell in love. I wrote. I cried. I talked. I thought.

Things that make me happy these days :

DVD bajakan
Justin Bieber [okay don't shoot me]
HP udah bener lagi
Cyber crush ♥
1k+ Twitter followers :DD
Googling rad obscure bands to listen to
Letting go
New black hair dye :3
April Fools
#happybdayGerardWay on TT
Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus

Things that make me sad these days :

Ketakutan hasil unas
HP rusak
How letting go sucks
Orang tua menyebalkan
Kehabisan uang
Koruptor di TV
Ga nonton Cobra Starship

There are more, actually. But since I'm a lazy ass I'm not gonna write them all down here.

Anywaaay I think i'm gonna start a new money making project or smth. Or lose weight. Or save the world. Or at the very least, stop being online like 20/7 && start doing something useful. I'm obsessed with the whole idea of live fast, die young && wasting the 14 years of your life going online is not so cool.

I don't know what else to write so yeah.

stay golden.

the white rabbit's point of view.

2010-03-26T23:06:00.000-07:00

'How do you like the Queen?' said the Cat in a low voice.

'Not at all,' said Alice: 'she's so extremely--' Just then she noticed that the Queen was close behind her, listening: so she went on, '--likely to win, that it's hardly worth while finishing the game.'

The Queen smiled and passed on.

'Who ARE you talking to?' said the King, going up to Alice, and looking at the Cat's head with great curiosity.

'It's a friend of mine--a Cheshire Cat,' said Alice: 'allow me to introduce it.'

'I don't like the look of it at all,' said the King: 'however, it may kiss my hand if it likes.'

'I'd rather not,' the Cat remarked.

'Don't be impertinent,' said the King, 'and don't look at me like that!' He got behind Alice as he spoke.

'A cat may look at a king,' said Alice. 'I've read that in some book, but I don't remember where.'

'Well, it must be removed,' said the King very decidedly, and he called the Queen, who was passing at the moment, 'My dear! I wish you would have this cat removed!'

The Queen had only one way of settling all difficulties, great or small.

'-Off with his head!' she said, without even looking round.

'I'll fetch the executioner myself,' said the King eagerly, and he hurried off.

when i look in the mirror.

2010-03-13T22:28:00.000-08:00

one.
things you touch turn silent.

hearts can be blacked, burnt, ashy - but you take the ashes and burn, burn, burn them
until there's only a memory left, a memory that's all edges and icicles.

you leave me cold, empty and
i don't want to breathe anymore.

two.
'darling, you would do well to remember-

you can't have a light at the end of the tunnel
if you have no tunnel.

darling, you would do well to remember -

you are not empty. you are not empty.
[it's still hurting, after all. it's still hurting
and you don't want to live,
but you're not empty.]

darling, you would do well to remember-

they love you. they love you,

they love you.

even if you're not sure why.'

three.
you wish gravity would hurry up and take you.

maybe then you'd finally crash, instead of falling all the time.

maybe then it'd be over.

maybe.

four.
there is a war in your eyes, a fight for survival, a will to breathe, live, smile again.

you miss the laughter and the light you used to have. you miss making people smile.
you miss opening your mouth to catch raindrops on your tongue, spinning in circles and laughing just because you can, just because you're alive.

you miss being happy.

but there's no light in your eyes anymore, is there?

five.
smile for me.
smile for me, please.

because i can't.

fashion victims.

2010-03-06T05:20:00.000-08:00

HI KIDS.

Alice In Wonderland is ah-shuuuumm. Saya hampir nangis karena terharu akhirnya nonton film itu juga. Tempat duduknya mantep deh tengah-tengah gitu :3 Dan menyelundupkan makanan yang beli di Hero. I won't talk about the movie though, that's why there's Wikipedia.

Tadi aku beneran dandan kesana. Too bad I didn't take any piccies :\

Full-skirted dress, a black trenchcoat, black knee-length socks && black wedges. && a lip ring. && clutching a teddy bear everywhere. Saya pun diliatin orang-orang dengan tatapan "ih harusnya kamu dandan sesuai umur, kamu udah bukan 6 tahun lagi."

Dan ini yang membuat saya emosi.

Di majalah-majalah, aku yakin modelnya pasti baru umur 15-16ish dan mereka dandan kea umur 25 taun dan itu dibilang keren. Lagian di majalah fashion semua bajunya sama semua, modelnya seragam. Dan di fashion blog gitu sama juga kok. Kay that's trend, i know. But does we all have to follow the trend ? Fuck no.

Sebenernya siapa yang menentukan apa yang lagi tren, apa yang nggak ? Vogue ? Karl Lagerfeld ? Mango ? Siapa sih ?

Atau mungkin beberapa orang mulai make barang baru yang jarang dipake orang lain, terus desainer-desainer itu ikutan buat dan tiba-tiba jadi sangat terkenal. Terus barang-barang itu mulai masuk retail store dan harganya jadi naik berkali-kali lipat. Dan para *cough* fashionista rebutan make duluan biar keliatan keren. Ganti musim, bajunya udah ga ngetren. Yang make ini sekarang jadi sangat tidak keren. This is an endless cycle.

I adore fashion. I adore models on runways. I love dressing up. I hate girls who think they're "stylish" just because they bought everything a retail store think it's stylish. I hate girls who judge other girls by the brand of her outfits [or the trendiness]. I hate fashion victims.

Kay maybe I don't have that much bucks to buy "stylish" items. I'm no model thin. I don't follow anything the fashion magz told me to. I dress like a 6-year-old. But I dress to impress myself. I dress that way just because i like it. I don't wear ankle boots if i don't feel that way; even when everyone else are wearing it. && I LOVE IT !

Afterall, this may sounds cliche but it's true-be yourself.

Dress as if no one cares. Wear anything you want, do not care if it's from the 80s or 90's or something; as long as it's acceptable. Do your hair anything you want it to be. Buy clothes from thrift stores, cute little vintage stores or your mom's closet. Exchange items with your friends-instant new clothes !

You were born an original, don't die a copy, kay ? :]

counting down the days.

2010-03-02T00:14:00.000-08:00

HAI GUIZE.
Sorry for not being here. Minggu ini lagi ada tryout Diknas dan tiba-tiba saya jadi sibuk sekali D: Oh well. Tebak sekarang tanggal berapa ? 2 Maret. BERARTI 3 HARI LAGI PREMIERE ALICE IN WONDERLAND !!

Oke mungkin lebih.
BUT STILL. One of my favorite book ever is going to cinema, starring Johnny Depp, Anne Hathaway && motion made by the best movie director ever. Did I mention Johnny Depp ? Sepertinya film ini akan membuat saya [dan kalian juga harus] tergila-gila.

Kalo misalnya di US rilis tanggal 5 kira-kira di Surabaya tanggal berapa ya ? Jangan pas Unas dong D: Aku udah niat banget mau nonton premierenya. Udah siap-siap baju lengkap dengan sepatu dan aksesoris. Udah nabung. Kan ga asik kalo ntar keluarnya pas Unas terus aku ga boleh nonton ;___; i don't care. Pokoknya pas premiere harus nonton. Harus booking tiket jauh-jauh hari. Harus siap temen-temen buat nonton bareng. Harus siap transport ke XXI juga.

Pengen juga sih nonton yang 3D, tapi katanya kalo 3D ga ada subtitlenya. && my English sucks xD Ntar deh habis nonton yang biasa baru nonton yang 3D wakakaka.

OH && THE SOUNDTRACK. THE SOUNDTRACK ZOMG. Called "Almost Alice". One super epic all-star album based on my favorite movie. *dies*

Tracklisting:

Alice (Underground) - Avril Lavigne
The Poison - All-American Rejects
The Technicolor Phase - Owl City
Her Name Is Alice - Shinedown
Painting Flowers - All Time Low
Where's My Angel - Metro Station
Strange - Tokie Hotel ft. Kerli [!!!]
Follow Me Down - 3OH!3 ft. Neon Hitch
Very Good Advice - Robert Smith
In Transit - Mark Hoppus ft. Pete Wentz
Welcome To Mystery - Plain White T's
Tea Party - Kerli
The Lobster Quadrille - Franz Ferdinand
Running Out Of Time - Motion City Soundtrack
Fell Down A Hole - Wolfmother
White Rabbit - Grace Potter and the Nocturnals

SEE ? SEE ?

Me is currently downloading the album :3 Tapi ya gitu deh, Smart tidak bisa diandalkan.

CAN'T EFFIN WAIT.

Awesome Things

2010-02-20T23:38:00.000-08:00

CUTEST CROSSDESSER EVUURRRRR.

My life is very effin boring these days. Wake up, school, go home, bed. Stuffs. So I tried to write down the most awesome thing I did that day just to remind me that there's something rad I've done :]

Soooooo I sorta made a new hashtag on Twitter, #awesomethingididtoday :]

I'm going to write the list down here, but in case you want to stalk me or ask me or something go here.

Monday, February 15th

- Talked && giggled about boys with the girls. Haven't done that in ages.

Tuesday, February 16th

- Broke a cookie into pieces && ate it unheartedly && pretend it's that kid.

Wednesday, February 17th

- Fangirl over a manga character. OMFG THE WORLD NEEDS MORE HYOUDOU AOI.

Thursday, February 18th

- Singing Love Drunk. Out loud. Badly. Off key. In the middle of the math class. [just for the fun of it.]

Friday, February 19th

- Took a long walk under the rain. Made paper planes. Drew roses on the car window.

Saturday, February 20th

- Wore lolita to school. Went to a bookstore && read a 3D dinosaur book.

Sunday, February 21st

- Rode a bike to the nearest garden wearing a bunny ear headband && heart temporary tattoo on my face.

Together and Whatever That Entrails

2010-02-15T04:13:00.000-08:00

OMG OMG LOOKIE FIC PERTAMA SAYA !

Title: Together and Whatever That Entrails

Pairing: Frank/Gerard

Disclaimer: As real as my pet unicorn in my backyard.

Summary: One night, a rather drunk Gerard makes an offer Frank wasn't expecting.

After this long, you'd think age wouldn't matter between all of us, since we're so close. But the truth is it really startles me sometimes how fucking young Gerard looks. Him and his brother, both - they have these really smooth symmetrical faces. What I read a long time ago is that symmetry is the number-one attractive feature in anyone, and number-two is something most people don't have. Blonde hair, the only reason blonde chicks get so much attention is most of us have dark hair.

His hair is so dark and black between my palms but I think he's beautiful anyway. That's the other thing - only kids get called beautiful, but he's already completely adult, drinking and swearing and smoking. And I still look down at this asshole and think he's beautiful. It's not even in the way he dresses himself up. It's just something inherently Gerard, something that you could've seen when he was seven years old.

Now he's turning to me, smiling, and he says, "Frankie you're holding my hair," and I look at the rough black strands of it, knotted together.

"Yeah, I know."

"So... okay. You wanna braid it?"

I laugh at this, pick apart three messy sections. "Like little girls or some shit. God, you're so weird. Where the hell did that come from?"

"It's..." He yawns. "Really peaceful. Grow your hair out, man, you'll see, it's just like... man, someone touches your fuckin' hair, boom, you fall asleep."

"Screw weird. You're just drunk."

"Nah, nah. Look, I'm sleepy already." He smiles with his eyes shut, half-closed from sleep and half from the ferocity of his smile. I mean, this is what makes him look so damn innocent - the way he smiles, it's cute. It's so pure and happy and sometimes I just wonder how the fuck kids can survive like that, smiling so much all the time.

"You're sleepy because you're drunk."

We're lying on a hotel bed where we've been staying, two rooms between the five of us, me and him in one room but we're on the same bed now. When Gee gets drunk he sometimes gets these fits of loneliness; quick, he says, like lightning in his head. He crawled into the bed with me but he's not under the blankets, so there are three layers of cloth between us.

"I'm not drunk, I'm telling you, man, you never fuckin' listen. Totally sober."

"We wouldn't be here if you were sober."

He smiles again, tips his head back into my palms. His body is curved against mine and the heat of his back sinks through all the cloth to rest in the pit of my stomach. Yesterday we were drenched in the rain, cursing because it always fucking rains in this town, and filming for a video that he's in love with and I am quietly in like with. It's pretty but seeing the dancing girl rubbing her eyeliner off, smoking behind the building... it ruined it. I couldn't feel that tremor of love when I watched her dance.

He says, "I want a cigarette."

"Not in here, you'll light the bed on fire."

"Nah, nah, I can do it, I can do it." He digs through his pocket and I play with smaller sections of his hair, looping them together, feeling the almost-brittleness of it between my fingertips. "I'll be fine."

"Then lemme have one, at least." The smoke curls around us and hangs in heavy lazy clouds, dragging my brain down into the depths of the sheets. A last smear of eyeliner has made its way down to his cheekbone and I lick the pad of my thumb, rub it off.

"Fuck you."

He hands the cigarette up to me, lets me take a drag off it, his fingers still clutching it. I can feel my lips touch his skin and he smiles again. Fuck. So innocent, so quiet and shy. I don't know, it just doesn't make sense, a lot, and he blows smoke in my face.

"You're so damn nice to me," I say, laying the sarcasm on so even in his drunken state, he can catch it. "I don't know what I'd do without you."

"Damn straight, I am. Best you're ever gonna fuckin' get."

I laugh at this. "You make it sound like we're together."

"We are together, bitch." He gestures with the cigarette, looks back at me over the mess of hair in my hands. "You and me, in this bed, together, right, how bad does that sound? But here we are, man." When he laughs it comes out faintly ragged from smoke.

"Aw, how sweet, I didn't know you cared."

"Of course I care, Frankie, I fuckin' love you, like... let's get married, that's how much I love you. Like, even without a diamond or flower girls or shit, I'd marry you." He's talking fast and high now, giggling between phrases. "I mean if it were a marrying-thing, you or anyone else in the world, you'd win, hands down, kick their ass, 'cause I love you. What the fuck you're right I'm drunk."

I smooth his hair down. "You're funny when you're drunk, at least." And it's true - I'm laughing, taking another drag from the offered cigarette, lips against his fingers again. I breathe smoke out and laugh again and say, "We could have matching wedding dresses."

"Aw, fuck yeah! See, that's what I'm talking about. Like, we could do each other's makeup and shit before."

"I could do your hair." I smile and he flashes that brilliant grin back, so hard his cheeks turn faintly pink.

"All right, come on, you and me, we're getting married. Now." He jumps up off the bed, leaving the curve of my stomach feeling suddenly cold, even inside two layers of clothes. The muscles of my back are tense and shivering and I watch him bounce on the balls of his feet. "Seriously, just... I dunno, rings, we need rings. We'll take the van, fuck, it'll be awesome."

"We can't get married." The smoke is seeping in through my bones, lazy, and I smile up at him still. "It's illegal, you know? Two cocks and all."

"You haven't got one, they won't care." He's spinning around now, arms splayed out in the air, whirring. "Frankie is a girl's name, even!"

"Blow me." I throw a pillow at his legs, watch him hop over it, fall back onto the bed. He bats his eyelashes at me.

"Not until we're married, darling."

"What the fuck, we're not getting married." I throw another pillow that bounces harmlessly off the side of the bed. "Why are you so damn set on it?" Despite the words my tone is happy, letting the words spiral out into the room like exhaled smoke, hanging between our heads. He's still jittering and slapping his palms against his thighs.

"Cause I'm bored and drunk and come on, Frankie, please please? There's this little corner store, it's like a block down the road, we can buy some cheap jewelry or some shit." He smiles wide, pure, utterly defying the sad sound of his next words. "It'll be a good story when you're old and married with kids."

My best friend sprawled on the bed next to me, drunk, begging me to pretend to marry him because... because what? Because if he doesn't distract himself with fake silly happy thoughts he'll end up eating a double handful of pills, and I don't want to find him sprawled blue and green on a bathroom floor again. Because lightning hits in his head when he's sad and drunk. Or maybe just because he's Gerard and this is what he does, so innocent, asks people to marry him and worship him because he knows it will be done, no matter how foolish you feel doing it.

Or maybe I'm just as fucking drunk as he is. I'm staring at his hipbones, the way his sweatpants are falling to reveal their sharp points. His face is so soft around the edges but all of a sudden, in this expanse of his skin there are these bones, and I want to feel them beneath my palms. This scares me. A lot.

"All right, shut the hell up, let's go."

Before I can finish the sentence, he's out the door, leaving me to grab our room key, lock up, try to find him. Outside on the sidewalk he's bouncing again, practically skipping. I laugh and press my hand into his shoulder. "Try not to piss yourself."

"I'm just real excited," he says, and giggles. "C'mon, I know the way, I saw it when we were coming back."

"Should we take the van...?"

"Have a sense of adventure," he says, and when he takes my hand, his eyes are lit up. "You could use the exercise, anyway. Lazy-ass."

"Am not!"

"Fuck, which of us was carrying the coffin? Sure as hell wasn't you."

I blink, remember us carrying the prop coffin down the church stairs, him grinning at me like a demon between takes. He, perpetually taller, ended up with most of the weight - not my fault. During takes we stayed solemn and he threw his soul out into the pouring rain. After, he complained about the pain in his shoulders. I hadn't fucking known he was serious.

"You know what, shut your face."

"We're going to have such a happy life together." He pulls my hand, urging me on. Across the road is a tiny graveyard, plopped down in the middle of the city - bizarre and perfectly apt, and he squeaks, starts jogging. Once I'm moving fast with him he speeds up to a run, and then he screams out across the quiet road, "Wake up, motherfuckers!"

Behind us his voice echoes, ricocheting against the buildings, and I laugh. "It's like three in the fucking morning, don't be an asshole, these people aren't waking up."

"Wasn't talking to the people," he says, and gives me a huge grin. I sling my arm around his shoulder and then we're on the corner, panting, outside a cheap little neon-lit store with a man drinking behind the counter.

"You're so fucked up," I say. "Let's go get hitched." In response, he buries his face into my shoulder and makes happy noises.

Sure enough, there's one tiny aisle dedicated to plastic water pistols and knockoff Barbies. He amuses himself with the shrink-wrapped dolls, making them have passionate sex in the aisle; I throw a rubber ball at his head and catch it on the rebound. "That's skill," I tell him, and he flips me off. Behind a heap of foam footballs is a box full of rings. I take one out, throw this at his head, too. He laughs and blows me a kiss.

"These are so fucking ugly," I say. "They were made for seven-year-old girls and I bet they'll turn our fingers green."

"They're pretty big. Look, it fits!" He waves his hand in my face. It's copper, painted silver. Just a cheap ugly ring no little girl is ever going to particularly want, and if she gets it, it's because her family's too fucking broke to afford anything better. I look at him and he's beaming, calling to the man up front, "We're gonna take two of these rings, okay?" I take one out and work it onto my finger. It fits, I guess. These were made for fat kids' fingers I think. That's so fucking depressing.

The man glares at us, and Gerard just throws a ten dollar bill on the counter as we walk out, flipping him off as hard as a person can really do that. On the road I say, "We need... I don't know, a ceremony, or something."

The streets are empty and washed out and the roads are stripped of their lines, washed away in endless rain. It rains every fucking time we're here. I didn't want to go out here to make the video but it had to be, so here we are, and across the street the cemetary is still sleeping. Gerard tips his head back and opens his mouth like he's going to scream, or catch raindrops in his mouth.

"Which hand are you wearing yours on?" he asks.

"Right."

"Left for me. You suck. All right all right all right," and he picks up my right in his left, voice serious, "Frankie Iero, you're a total moron and a masochist, and I fucked your mom."

"Gerard Way, even when you're sober you're a drunken asshole, but it's okay because I fucked your brother."

"... Ugh. Sick." He slaps my wrist and laughs. "So you're an idiot, and I'm an asshole, and from now on we're married and even if you have like twenty kids, you're stuck with me forever."

There are crickets in the background. This calls for some repetition, some end to the cadence, so I say, "And even if you live in a cheap motel for the rest of your life and I have a mansion - which is totally gonna happen - you're stuck with me forever."

Then he's off running down the street, screaming, "Like hell you're gonna have a mansion," and our shoes burn through the dampness of the pavement, sending fire shooting up my side, but it's a short block and outside the hotel, we're still linked by our hands under the streetlight. I can feel the metal in our ugly rings touch and he says, panting, "Just so you know, there's no honeymoon."

"That's okay, I bet you suck in bed."

He smiles so wide that the streetlight seems to fall straight through my skin and into my heart, and inside there it burns the image of his face, and I let go of his hand to mess up his already-knotted hair. When we get to the room, he finds space under the blankets with me, curling tight against my stomach. I tell him he smells like crap and he puts his arms around me, mumbles something into the skin of my neck. His lips leave a damp feeling there and I hold him back.

For a long time he talks, so quiet I can hardly tell he's awake. It all comes out fragmented but at any point I can start paying attention and piece it together. He says, "I think love is just a bullshit thing people come up with to give themselves purpose. I mean, I think love is just friendship, except with your friends you get sick of them after awhile. And love is that person you don't ever get sick of or want to be away from, except then people do all kinds of fucked-up stuff to keep love."

I smooth down his hair, almost repetitively, and he keeps talking. "And people have kids to keep the one they love near, and they do all this shit to try and earn love, but all you can do is really be someone's friend and if you're not then it's all just bullshit, you know? And people mix sex up into it but it hasn't got anything to do with sex, it's totally pure. It's just... this person that you love, this person you never ever wanna be away from." I look at the shine of his hair and then he's asleep, lips still moving against my neck silently. He smells like alcohol.

In the morning he is squinting at the sun, cursing, and he doesn't say anything about the rings. I look at my hand for a long time before I say good morning, and he stares at me for a moment.

"Yeah?" I ask him.

He shrugs. "Can't a guy look at his best friend?"

everything you missed, you'll love it.

2010-02-13T15:52:00.000-08:00

HAI CUNTSSSSS.
i know you missed me, or something. kemaren Bali asik loh :3 ntar aja ya bloggingnya kalo sempet hehe.

Sekarang tiap hari aku sekolah kecuali Minggu, capek banget. Minggu juga masih les -- Tweeting aja jarang, apalagi blogging. Kelas 9 emang gini ya ;__; tapi pasti ntar worth hasil unasnya juga :] Sabar ya kalo sekarang saya jarang blogging xP

Anyway, today is Valentine's Day, && I don't really care. Yay me. I AM MY OWN VALENTINE.

RADICAL SELF LOVE.
inspired by the magnificent Miss Gala Darling, February is the perfect time to be your own darling, to have a wonderful love affair with yourself. Aku sendiri juga ga seberapa seneng dengan diri sendiri sih but hey, it's worth the try !

Sure, I'm not size 2. Yes, I am not the girl everyone wants to dance with. I am not flawless. I am not rich nor spoiled nor super pretty. BUT STOP THE 'NOT'S, GIRLS. Instead of thinking about what you're missing, try thinking about what you have that everyone else is missing. Why compare yourself to others ? No one in the entire world can do a better job of being you than you.

I may not be size 2, but I have toned arms that would look good in sleeveless tops.
I don't have the money to shop at Mango or Zara [ironic, isn't it ?] but I can sew my own. or better, I'm a thrift store queen !
I suck at Math && Physics but i have a pretty good English.
I can do the scream vocals. Not every girl can do this shit :]
I'm not as pretty as Zooey Deschanel or something but I'm pretty much photogenic. A pretty face is a waste if you look terrible in photos xD
My hair is not that amazing 24/7 but hey I can cut hair !

And sooooooo on. I know you have something, something that is very brilliant that everyone else don't have.

Go. Enjoy life. Eat things that give you bad breath. Trip on your own shoelace. You can drink banana juice && and immitate gorilla && do sily dances && sing stupid songs && wear funny hats && be as imperfect as you please && still be a good person. Go to a pet store if it makes you happy. Go to a make up aisle in department stores to smell perfumes. Sing - out loud, off note, basically do anything that makes you happy. How fucking fun is that ?

"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it is better to be absolutely ridiculous that absolutely boring."
- Marilyn Monroe.

inspired by: Gala Darling // Love Your Flawz // Operation Beautiful //

leather, lace, && your heart.

2010-01-23T20:47:00.000-08:00

you told me to meet you here, in the back room of what appears to be either a giant shoe store or a gay bar. you ordered me a drink, and it was a smoothie made of hundred dollar bills and glitter. you told me my clothes were “not camera ready,” and you gave me a shirt made of ostrich feathers.

you called me “lovely” as if that was my name (it’s not).

i actually don’t know what you really look like, to tell you the truth.
but, i guess any girl who wears that much makeup at all times must be a knockout, right? or not?

look, i’m too confused to fight this.

yes, i’ll go on your hot pink private jet. yes, i’ll drink champagne with you and Perez Hilton. yes, i’ll roll around in a giant hamster wheel while you throw red paint on me. yes, we'll have blue candlelight dinner everynight. just me and you. and your bizarre wax mannequins dressed in John Galliano.

this must be what it feels like to fall in love.

that, or i’ve lost my fucking mind.

.

dedicated to Lady Gaga.

dramas && Las Vegas.

2010-01-20T00:12:00.000-08:00

HAI TEMAN-TEMAAAAAAAAANNN.

OMFG udah lama banget ga blogging, internet Smart minta dibacok terus sih :\ semoga yang ini lancar ngepostnya ntar. How long has it been ? 10 hari ya ? oh whutever. Yang penting sekarang udah ngeblog kan hehe.

Sebenernya akhir-akhir ini rada males ngeblog. Udah internet ngehe, ga punya ide, && mostly : DRAMAS. Aku males kalo udah berantem di internet (tapi ngikutin orang berantem seru deh). Copycats, fakers, fame whores, you name it. Awalnya cuma nyindir-nyindir gitu, terus lama-lama ngelabrak. Males deeeeehh. Apalagi kalo bawa-bawa temen. Coward.

Ada kok yang pura-pura baik sama aku, tapi di blognya ngejekinnya minta ampun. Ada yang baru kenal udah banyak masalah. Ada yang ngaku jadi aku terus ngelabrak orang lain. Ada yang make fotoku di FBnya. Ada yang copy style dan lain-lain. I've been there. Maunya apa gitu ya, i mean, saya bahkan tidak gaul dan populer --

Haha anyway gara-gara profpic baru FB saya jadi banyak yang ngeadd xDD Terus sekarang friendlist isinya anak-anak kelas 8. No, bukan dari sekolah saya saja. Dari seluruh Nusantara. Like seriously- apakah tampang saya tampang "oh-i'm-so-cool-&&-you-should-add-me-&&-call-me-kakak-all-the-time" ? NGGAK KAN.

Lama-lama serem juga ya. Saya merasa seperti pedofil.

My life is pretty much awesome lately. Sekolah ga ada pelajaran. Pulang siang. Twitter sering rame. No more her emo tweets on my timeline. Rambut memanjang. Photoshoot lancar. Lagi rajin maskeran. Such lah :D OH OH && I'M GOING TO BALI NEXT MONDAAAY !!!!

Jujur aku belom pernah ke Bali loh ! OMFG i'm so fucking excited !

Sekarang bingung mau pake ransel apa koper. Bawa baju apa. Bawa duit berapa. Mau ngapain disana. Like i care. YANG PENTING KAN KE BALI OMGGGG. Tapi katanya sekarang lagi cuaca buruk. Nyebrang naik kapalnya jadi serem ya :\ but the best part about field trip is the bus ride, seriously xD doain rapot saya bagus ya, UAS kemaren susah sih :\

Hari Jumat rapotan, Senin ke Bali. what a life :]

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LAWLZ MY ASS.

NOW DROOL. i love pretty && talented gays, && so should you ♥

loveletters && lipstick lullabies,

money matters.

2010-01-11T21:17:00.001-08:00

Menyedihkan sekali ya saya baru bisa blogging sekarang :\

Dari kemaren ngehe terus internetnya. Terus aku UAS mulai kemaren :[ daaym i suck at exams.

Anywaaay kemaren di TV ada berita sidak penjara gitu, terus selnya Arthalyta bagus banget kea hotel. CURANG. Sementara yang lainnya sempit-sempitan satu kamar 17 orang. AHAHA LIKE WTFFFF. Tante, i wish i had enough middle fingers to show you.

Gitu pasti di tiap penjara ada kan. Kalo bayar segini ntar dapet kamar segini. Bayar segini dapet makan ini. Bukannya penjara emang biar pada kapok ya ? Ga cuma pindah tidur gitu. Terus polisinya ikut-ikutan juga berarti ya -- ahahaha pathetic. Berarti penjaranya kaya dooong kalo banyak napi kea gitu. Harusnya duitnya buat renovasi penjara aja biar ga overload. ATAU GA USAH PAKE DUIT. Hore.

Belom lagi yang korupsi triliunan itu. Wow, i mean, menurut mereka uang itu apa ? Thing to get your ass on those blings ? HA. Bayangin ya, 1 miliar itu bisa bikin berapa sekolah. Berapa rumah standar. Belom 1 triliun -- Harusnya mereka ngerti dong, masih banyak yang butuh duit. Uang yang dikorupsi itu kan uang rakyat. Udah tua tetep ga nyadar, goblok. Ahahaha may they rot in hell <3

Terus siapa itu yang anak kecil, SINAR. Yes. Kan kasian banget 6 taun mesti kerja && stuffs. Harusnya orang kea gitu yang berhak dapet bantuan. Bukannya tante-tante brand-minded sama om-om koleksi mobil. Lagian udah pada banyak duit kan ya -- oh well, money does change people.

Dulu aku pernah ikut pidato Kalau Aku Jadi Presiden. Tapi dasar anak SD ngomonginnya Disneyland -- kalo sekarang nggak doooong <33>

Oke saya tau saya sadis. Tapi mereka kan lebih sadis lagi. Bayangin berapa banyak orang yang ga makan soalnya duitnya dikorupsi. Bayangin berapa orang yang mati kesakitan soalnya ga bisa bayar rumah sakit. HARUSNYA PARA KORUPTOR DAN ORANG MANIAK UANG LAINNYA YANG MATI ASDJKFML.

fuck you, Arthalyta. && your little pathetic old friends.

i'm bright orange && i love lasagna.

2010-01-02T20:00:00.000-08:00

by SoftSpirit118.

Goodbye 2009.

Thankyou for everything; for the magical adventures.

For your introductions & endings, your magic & surprise.

For your lessons & challenges, your blessings & beauty.

Welcome 2010.

I know it's getting rougher, but hell i like it rough !

I am so very excited to see what you have in stores for me.

❤ ❤ ❤

Done. 2009 yang ternyata agak mengerikan itu beres. I hope 2010 would be much better. With no sudden death or World War III or population reduction or something. Kan ga seru kalo aku matinya umur 14 taun --.

Tahun ini aku mau belajar yang rada rajin, Maret udah Unas sih. Aku pengen cari beasiswa ke Singapore, biar ga mati bosen di Surabaya terus wakakaka. Terus aku pengen nabung, buat HP baru && outfits && stuffs. Ngecat rambut jadi pink juga belom kesampean ;__;

Kalo ga dapet ke Singapore, aku pengen di Smasa. Yang lain gatau lah, gampang ntar. Terus ntar pengen masuk IPS juga. Oke saya memang ga bakat Fisika dan teman-temannya. Ayo bunuh saya.

Anyway, here's some of my current obsessions:

Dolce & Gabbana Google Chrome theme (leopard prints FTW !)
Indie online shops. (Shanalogic, Etsy, ModCloth, Urban Outfitters.)
Cat Masks && Skeleton Prints. sexy <3
Ghostgirl. one of the best novel i've ever read in my whole fuken life :D
Sylvanian Families. CUTENESS IN A BOX. my life is now 46,9% complete

HOW COULD YOU NOT LOVE THEEEEM ?

peace , love, zombies,

eternal rest.

2009-12-30T00:34:00.000-08:00

R.I.P THE REVEREND THOLOMEW PLAGUE
born James Owen Sullivan

1981 - 2009

you've been my hero since 7th grade, && you always will.
i bet you're rocking the heaven right now. we're gonna miss you man.

"cause everybody gotta die sometime..."
- A Little Piece of Heaven by A7X.

with love,

welcome to the dollhouse.

2009-12-27T05:00:00.000-08:00

Dalam rangka Natal dan tahun baru [dan permintaan maaf jarang ngeblog], hari ini saya membuka "open house" :3 WELCOME !

*open doors* Iya, kamarku berantakan. Dan ungu. Dan lampunya kuning. Sempit. Ga ada TVnya -- but still... disitulah saya hidup sehari-hari teman.

Belakang pintunya digantungin tas. I do love vintage bags <3 Sama stiker kalo habis beli baju gitu juga aku gantungin disitu xD Biasanya banyak baju juga, males nyuci sih. && boxers <33

HELLO BED. Yes, with Pokemon bedcover <3 Biasanya Pandora tidur disitu juga. Terus biasanya ada teddy bear tapi waktu itu dicuci :\ Tempat tidur saya kecil dan sempit -- sprei sama bantalnya ga matching, i know. I'm good at mismatching ;]

Lemari sayaaaa :D Isinya kebanyakan ga branded, && kinda out of trend dolls hahahha. Di atasnya ada koleksi kaleng. Yes, i do koleksi kaleng. Call me lame, i know i am :]

my um, vanity xD Aku ga punya meja rias jadi semua ditaro sini ahahhaa. Isinya cuma cologne, liner, masker dll -- && OH HELLO KITTY FROM McD. Itu yang Korean Bride gitu ceritanya, sama ada satu lagi yang Jepang <3 Ada papertoys juga, kebanyakan dari Thunderpanda. He's rad as fuck :D

Dan ini rak buku saya :

Closeup look, anyone ?

Yang atas ini but koleksi parfum, my babies <3 Udah dapet lumayan sih, ga terlalu branded juga -- Kebanyakan sisa dari ibu saya *sigh* punyaku yang Gucci pink itu <3

buku pelajaran. 'nuff said. OH HELLO BARBIE.

majalah, komik, stuffs. NYLON, Girlfriend, Gals!, Ghostgirl, Lolita, Perfume, ALICE IN WONDERLAND <3

Dan ini tempat favorit saya : sofa. Sometimes all you need are a cup of coffee, a cute pet to sit on your lap, and a good couch. Biasanya aku duduk-duduk aja disitu, ngopi. Kadang gambar, atau nulis. Kadang mengemo. Oh well.

There's much more but i'm just too lazy to blog xD
coffee, anyone ?

because i am so vogue.

2009-12-13T01:14:00.000-08:00

Aww shit it's been a week && i haven't posted anything xD
Kemaren aku ke TP sama Anti :D
Nyoba froyo baru gitu, namanya Creayo. Asik deh, jadi kita bikin froyo sendiri gitu. Tinggal ambil :3

Terus ambil macem* lah. Banyak Gummy Bears. Banyak kiwi. Banyak benda* kecil lainnya. Terus waktu ditimbang bayarnya cuma 31 ribu ternyataaaa :D bahagianya. Pics soon ya, saya lagi di warnet.

Di TP cuma beli makanan doang. Froyo, kentang, lidah buaya, jus mangga, stuffs -- OH && PHOTOBOX.

so vogue.

Photobox itu jamannya pas saya masih SD. Rasanya gaul gitu kalo punya banyak, terus dimasukin dompet. Terus fotonya rame* banget dengan background dan template berwarna-warni. Kenapa hal seperti itu dibilang keren ya dulu ? Heran. Apakah mungkin suatu saat photobox ngetrend lagi ?

Mode itu muter terus kan. Kemaren di Zara isinya padded shoulder semua, dan mahal. Padahal aku punya, gratis warisan orang tua dari jaman 80an wakakakaka. Mungkin taun kemaren padded shoulder keliatan ketinggalan jaman banget ya, tapi entah kenapa sekarang ngetren lagi O__O

Awkaaay enough fashion blog-esque shits. Sepertinya SAYA KETAGIHAN PHOTOBOX. LAGI. Karena seru. Karena bagus buat properti foto "what's in my purse." [i'm going to make a photoshoot with this theme :3] dan yang paling penting;

WE'RE GOING TO MAKE PHOTOBOX BACK ON TRACK !

be ready, bitches <3
xxzara

labels are for soup cans.

2009-12-05T21:14:00.000-08:00

Akhir-akhir ini saya ketagihan 90210. Sepertinya kehidupan mereka gampang dan bahagia sekali --. Banyak duit, terkenal, cowok cakep, semacam itu lah. Things you call preppy.

Coba pikir ya, apa hubungannya banyak duit, populer, pacarnya anak basket or such, agak *coughBITCHYcough*. No, jangan diomongin. Then you're labeling someone :]
Saya benci label. Bukannya apa ya, tapi kalo gitu kan jadi ga seru. Misalnya aslinya kamu ga suka musiknya tapi dandan scene mati-matian biar dibilang keren. Hello poser. Belom lagi kalo kamu emang beneran suka terus langsung ganti dandanan dalam 24 jam. Hello another try hard poser.

oh well, but i love them <3

Terus tadi malem aku nemu ini di WikiHow : Be A Preppy Indonesian Teen. THIS IS GETTING PATHETIC. Apa ya, emangnya mereka bangga gitu populer, banyak duit terus SAMA KEA ANAK LAINNYA. Cuma buang-buang duit, kalo menurutku -- ah, socialites.

Tapi gini bukan berarti aku nggak pernah dilabelin ya. I used to be a gothic lolita, waktu itu kelas 5 sampe kelas 7 gitu keanya ya hahaha. It was fun, really :] Tapi buyar soalnya cari baju dan lainnya susah. But i'm still a lolita at heart <3
And my ex was goth. Jadi rada nyambung lah jaman dulu itu hahaha.

Then here comes the scene kids. Big hair, piercing, skinny jeans. Aku bukannya melabel diri sendiri ya, but i like them !
Audrey Kitching, Hanna Beth, Jeffree Star, mereka fashion icon saya <3 But no, i'm not scene. Saya hanya tertarik :D

So what do you guys think about labels ? YAY or NAY ?
me, nay xP

your typical updates.

2009-12-02T06:02:00.000-08:00

Enough membuat hidup semakin berantakan. Saya akan menata ulang hidup saya :D
Nggak ding. Paling cuma niat doang terus ujung-ujungnya males ahahaha. Tapi beneran loh, gara-gara pengalaman aku jadi rada semangat .__.

Kemaren UTS jelek itu rasanya membuat saya kelihatan geblek sekali wakakaka. Jadi sekarang aku rada sering baca-baca buku pelajaran gitu. Bukan apa-apa sih, ujung-ujungnya juga tetep geblek kok --

Tapi mulai sekarang aku mau belajar yang rada rajin. Ngerjain PR juga. Bikin tugas. Aku pengen nyari beasiswa SMA di Singapore. Doain ya, soalnya aku bosen disini hahahha. Lagian katanya sekolah disana lebih gampang gitu pelajarannya, kan lumayan kalo disana dibilang pinter wakakaka xDD

Terus aku mau cari duit juga. Pengen HP baru, beneran deh. && i can't just ask my dad to buy me. Keluarga saya tidak sebahagia yang kalian bayangkan, trust me :P
Jadi akhirnya aku sama Aho mau bikin kaos gitu, tapi gatau deh ini jadi apa nggak. Soalnya dari selera aja udah beda --

cintaku <3
Kalo misalnya ga jalan, aku mau bikin DIY gitu aja terus dijual online. Statement necklaces, maybe. Atau long socks. Atau apa. SAYA BUTUH UANG SECEPATNYA. Pokoknya pas ke Bali haru ada HP baruuu <3 (oke keanya ga mungkin)

Mana orang rumah lagi haji. Ga enak jadi ga bisa minta apa-apa. Nenek juga diem aja gitu, ga beliin xP POKOKNYA SEBELUM KE BALI HARUS ADA !

Anyway, akhir-akhir ini aku ketagihan maskeraaaan :3 enak deh, adem. Tapi keanya ngefek juga ya bikin putih atau apa hahahaha. Aku pengen cantik. Flawless. Kayak di foto-foto Facebook saya. Aslinya aku ga gitu loh, Photoshop forced me to xD

Habis ini ulangan harian terus UTS. Mungkin aku ga ngeblog ya, mau belajar biar ga dapet 50 lagi xD ahahaha aib.

love && glitter,

i love that lavender blonde; the way she walks, the way she moves.

2009-11-26T03:41:00.000-08:00

Kehidupan saya kembali hancur berantakan.
Bukan apa-apa ya, sekarang kok rasanya aku bodo banget. Ulangan paling bagus 90an. Dulu rasanya dapet 100 itu gampang gitu --. Sekarang biar ga remidi aja susahnya minta ampun. Apakah tingkat intelegensi saya menurun ?

Oke emang ya sekarang aku di kelas bilingual gitu. Anak-anaknya *coughpintercough* tapi akunya ga pinter. Jadi kan rasanya malah down gitu ya. Mungkin kalo di kelas reguler aku ga bakal segininya ya hahaha. Masa UTS aja jelek-jelek banget. Biologi dapet 50 sementara yang lain 80an. Terus aku nangis di kelas. Yes, literally nangis.

Belom lagi UTS yang lain. Kebanyakan dapet 70an gitu, jadi pengen mati. Padahal belajarnya aja udah mati-matian itu zz. Apakah saya memang tidak pintar dalam pelajaran ? Kalo ulangan harian gitu aku masih bisa sih, lumayan hasilnya. Cuma takutnya ntar UAS juga ga bisa gitu D:

Anyway, kemaren katanya UN ga dibolehin sama MA. Awalnya aku sama Fisca heboh di Twitter. Eh yang lainnya ikutan. Tiwas heboh, ternyata mulai taun depan --. Ah at least ntar SMA ga ada UN amin.

Enough meratapi nasib. Sekarang saya gila GaGa <3 ALBUMNYA YANG BARU MANTAAAAAPPPP.

god in bodysuit.

Sekarang HPku isinya GaGa semua. Oh well. Dan seharusnya lagu So Happy I Could Die diciptakan sebelum masa "itu". I HAVE ALEJANDRO STUCKS IN MY HEAD. Sebelumnya Bad Romance. Pertama liat videonya horor gitu, ga berani jadinya ngajak Ruth xDD Sekarang juga lagi nyetel sealbum itu, baru download :3

love && lipstick,

a mess. one big mess.

2009-11-23T02:30:00.000-08:00

taken by Debaaaa :3

Haven't been here for awhile *sigh*. Kehidupan saya mulai berantakan. Ulangan ga jelas, sakit-sakitan, muka ga keurus, aahhh. DAN BARUSAN, BARUSAN SAJA SAYA DENGER BERITA BMTH GA JADI KESINI. LAGI. Jadi pengen nangis ya.

Padahal hari ini aku udah nangis dua kali. Di sekolah --. Soalnya biologi saya paling jelek di kelas (yes, this sounds nerdy). && the other one was the usual thing hahaha.
TAPI TADI REKOR BARU TERPECAHKAAAN.

Mam Wid ngomong 'okay' 136 kali. Dalam durasi 1 jam 11 menit. Dengan combo 3x berturut-turut. Mulai Fahmi sampe Afi, semuanya ngitung. Pas combo itu kan langsung "AAAHHH COMBO 3X AAAAHHH !" dan Wid tetap senyam senyum seperti segalanya tidak terjadi.

Dia itu ngeyelan. Terus kalo dibenerin ga mau nerima zz. Terus entah kenapa selalu senyum seperti idiot bahkan disaat segalanya memburuk. Terus tugasnya aneh-aneh, untung sering lupa. TAPI KAN 'OKAY'NYA ITU MENYATUKAN KELAS KITA <3

Anyway, i have made a choice to finally let her go.
No more Vegas wedding, no more mocking her boyfriend behind the car window, no more crying all night with our song in background. Done. Enough hurting each other. Letting go doesn't mean stop loving. I just...want her to be happy, even if it doesn't include me.

I would like to thank you, for showing me a part of myself that i have never seen. Yeah we were young and dumb, but it still was fun and i guess these things just tend to fall apart and i hope you feel the same.

i miss you.

i know WET you did last summer.

2009-11-14T20:23:00.000-08:00

SOOOOOOO HI.
Hari Minggu memang ga seru. Dibayangi hari Senin. Gyaaah.
Kemaren aku ke Ciputra Waterpark. SEHARIAN. It was rad ahahah.

Pertamanya biasa, paling cuma main perosotan kalo ga tiduran di Lazy River gitu. Terus nungguin ember yang gede itu. Sakit ya kalo kena ;_; Mainannya dikit sih disana. Jadi mainannya itu-itu aja tapi diulang ulang wakakaka.

ember maut itu.

Terus ada lagi perosotan gitu, keliatannya pendek tapi SEREM. Awalnya aku coba biasa gitu perosotan pake pelampung, terus sama paknya disuruh ga pake pelampung. Terus kepala duluan. Kalo ga pake pelampung terus tiduran gitu O_O

serem deh. beneran.

Soooo habis blah blah mainan gitu kan mandi ya. Aku masuk kamar mandi biasa sih, && my face went like O_O

i saw two girls making out under the shower, fully naked.
No, i'm not homophobic or what. I am bisexual myself && i have made out with girls aswell tapi kan ga di shower kamar mandi umum. O_O Pulangnya aku smsan sama Aho && he seemed freaked out xD

Habis mandi, makan, terus pulang. Eh ke PTC dulu sih, niatnya mau liat DetCon tapi rame kea tai. Sempit banget. Ga banyak alay sih, but still. && there was a cute guy with lip ring <3

Anyway, minggu ini aku UTS DAN PULANGNYA SIANG :D Menyenangkan sekali. Mungkin aku jarang ngepost ya, gatau lagi sih. Still working on some DIY fashion pieces, post soon !

wish me luck, dolls <3 love && bunny kisses,

(yes, new sign bitches !)

love fucked me up.

2009-11-09T03:53:00.001-08:00

So yah, saya bingung nulis ini dalam keadaan senang atau sedih.

Papa - Mama udah berangkat tadi. *coughMENGUASAIRUMAHcough*. Terus tadi aku bolos, kelayapan ke mall sendirian. Awalnya cuma cari makan, lama-lama muter-muter deh -______-

Habis makan beli cat minyak buat besok gambar. Cuma beli yang warna putih sih. Beli DVDnya Coraline juga (no, kali ini ga bajakan). Udah beli macem-macem gitu tetep ga mood deh. Oh waktu lewat mana gitu ada cowok cakep. I mean super-duper-CAKEP. Pake skinny item gitu, terus kaosnya Breathe Carolina <3>TERUS PAKE SNAKEBITES. && he has like the most awesome hair ever.

ya tuhan, saya jatuh cinta pada orang yang tidak dikenal.

Sepanjang muter-muter di mall aku cuma mikir satu : love, is really fucking unfair.

I got a crush on loads of boys. Loads of girls. But i only love one <3>setaun terus rasanya kea masih kemaren. I got a crush on the least peope you think i have. Tipe saya bukan tipikal tipe anak lainnya xDD

&& the one i love the most is also the one who hurt me the most. Mungkin dia ga ngerasa apa-apa ya, tapi minta tolong aku atau apa TANPA SUNGKAN ATAU APA. Itu kan parah ya. I mean, hello, after all we've been through ?

all the time i wasted on you,
all the bullshit you put me through,
checking into rehab 'cause everything that we had
didn't mean a thing to you.

- Love Drunk; Boys Like Girls

Oke terserah. You got your boyfriend, i got my-um, OH CRUSHES <3

Dan sepertinya para crush itu tidak ada apa-apanya dibandingkan kamu padahal seharusnya mereka lebih baik. Oh well.

you hurt me more than i deserve, how can you be so cruel ?

i love you more than you deserve, why am i such a fool ?

inspire.

maaf saya sedang mengemo.

peace, love, zombies;

xxzara.

i'm drunk && you're hot.

2009-11-06T04:40:00.000-08:00

Posting sekali seminggu. What a shame xD
Jadi hari Senin besok saya merencanakan bolos. Ntar kalo ditanyain "oh, lagi nganter papa-mama haji." && IT'S TRUEEE, BITCHES ! Selama 40 hari kedepan saya akan menguasai rumah :D
Rencananya, besok mau pemotretan sama Deba :3 terus main. Minggu paling cuma gulung-gulung di rumah. SENIN BOLOS. Tapi katanya Andien ga masuk mulai Rabu sampe Jumat, ga seru ah :\

Kemaren malem aku nonton horor sama Mbak Win. Judulnya Stay Alive. Low budget gitu deeehh. Ceritanya kan kea main game gitu terus kebawa ke dunia game. Pagi-pagi jadi takut mandi sendiri. Takut ketemu boneka horor itu huhu.

Tadi di sekolah pelajarannya dikit. Kelasnya pindah. SENAMNYA GA SERU D:
Seharian tadi cuma tidur di kelas. Berjam-jam. Terus kan sertifikatnya ICAS dibagiin. Pas dipanggil gitu saya malah "HA ?" dengan tampang ngantuk. Biarin deh, lagian tampang ngantuk sepertinya lagi tren. Liat deh foto SBY yang baru.

Kemaren aku ketagihan Stars Are Blind - Paris Hilton. Sekali nyetel ga bisa berhenti. Horor deh. Tadi siang ganti jadi Bad Romance - Lady GaGa. I would have sex with her <3 ILY Lock-And-Load <3

Berhubung saya ngantuk, ngomongnya jadi ngelantur. Maaf ya.

love && lipstick,
xxzara.

kebahagiaan hari jumat.

2009-10-30T05:33:00.000-07:00

THANKS GAWD IT'S FRIDAY. Hari favorit saya sepanjang masa- selain Sabtu.
Jumat itu enak. Rasanya udah "ah, besok Sabtu ya. Ntar malem marathon DVD aahh." atau apa. Terus di sekolah pelajarannya dikit (tapi sekarang ga asik pelajarannya). Terus pulangnya lebih cepet. But the hella rad thing is...

SENAM HARI JUMAT.

Seriously. Senam hari Jumat sangatlah menyenangkan. Mari kita lihat hal menyenangkan dari senam:

1. Istirahatnya lama.
Iya, jadi habis senam ada istirahatnya lagi gitu. Lumayan buat beli minum :P

2. Keceriaan mendadak.
House music && this super rad internet royalty *coughZARAcough* goyang-goyang ga jelas. Kapan lagi ?

lagu ini dijadikan house music menjadi backsound anak-anak bergoyang.

3. Guru-guru senam
HAHAHAHAHAHA 'NUFF SAID

4. INSTRUKTURNYA.
Ini yang paling keren. Jadi kan instrukturnya itu ntar naik ke semacam panggung gitu terus senam disitu. NAH INSTRUKTURNYA ITU SENSASIONAL. Minggu pertama kan masih Bu Linda gitu, senam poco-poco. Sejak itu sekarang saya ketagihan senam poco-poco di kelas. Terus minggu depannya ganti. Tante-tante pake tanktop jaring-jaring gitu. DAN SENAMNYA EROTIS. Semacam penyanyi dangdut dengan suara 'HA ! HA !' berat.
Minggu depannya lagi ganti juga. Cowok, pake baju putih putih ketat senyum terus dengan orientasi seksual tidak jelas. Sukanya kiss bye, entah kenapa.

Aku kirain kan instrukturnya ganti lagi minggu ini. EH TERNYATA NGGAK. Tetep si tante itu. Tadi pake kaos pandek ijo dan makeup setebal 5 cm. Pas lagi pada senam
tiba-tiba dia turun. Yang pada ga senam dipegen-pegang suruh senam. TERNYATA DARI DEKET DIA SEREM BANGET. Keanya hidungnya plastik deh.

Oh && komentar teman-teman saya tentang senam :

"MUAHAHAHA KEBAHAGIAAN INSTAN. sepanjang senam gw ngakak mulu !"
- Andien

"muahaha IYA! senam = menghilangkan emosi, menambah kebahagiaan :D "
- Ruth

"instrukturnya pasti TRANSGENDER. "
- Aho

udah ah banyak nyamuk.
love && lipstick xx Zara

HOLYPOOP I'M BACK !

2009-10-24T04:08:00.000-07:00

photo by :Deba
props by : Deba
hair && make up by : me xD

Ini hiatus saya yang paling lama mungkin.
No, i'm not that busy or something. Saya cuma malas. Oke whutever.

My life goes on, without the blogosphere knowing it D:
Ulang taun saya menyenangkan sekali. i made cupcakes, red ones. Terus kemaren aku kepeleset di kolam renang, pada ga tau ya ckckck. Terus kamera pink saya yang epic itu dirusakin sama Aho. Terus ada adek kelas rada cakep gitu wakakakak. Terus tadi pagi post di Facebook aku dibales sama Brandon Hiltom <3 Terus minggu depan aku ulangan....blah.

Bingung deh mau nulis apalagi. Stay tuned for updates :)

love && sequins,
xxzara.

ps - this is my 60th post !

2009-09-19T08:01:00.000-07:00

H I A T U S .
i'm on my holiday, dolls ! will be back soon xx.

skyscraper

2009-09-07T22:57:00.000-07:00

pic by Eitiz.

i used to reach for you, like
standing on tip-toes on a
skyscraper to reach the sky,

but you were always just out of reach
and I was out of place
and somehow my soul got lost in the atmosphere.
i lose myself in the memories of
us and wonder how much of it was ever
real.

was i a fool
for believing you
ever cared?

[i'm afraid that the answer
is yes.]

sometimes i look at my life
and wonder where you went
until i realize it doesn't
matter. the only thing that matters
is that you are
gone.

your love is a disease,
and i have no cure.
and now,
my soul is lost.
i live my life as an
empty shell, watching
the lights flickering
and wonder how long it will be
before they all
go out.

you are my 911,
but when i call,
no one answers.
you remain my untouched demented heart.
i am afraid for losing what we have

[but then i fear we’ve already lost.]

wake up

2009-09-03T20:13:00.000-07:00

pic by Hoffine.

Kehidupan saya akhir-akhir ini kacau. Tugas numpuk, banyak ulangan, sakit, gah. Yang paling parah sekarang aku sering mimpi horor gitu.

Mmkaaay not that 'horor', lebih mirip aneh sih. Semacam Alice In Wonderland versi serem. Banyak boneka-boneka, tangga, semacam itu lah.

Kapan itu aku mimpi naik kapal selam. Warnanya kuning, terus ternyata dalemnya bioskop. Ceritanya aku lagi pake headbow super gede warna merah sama high-waisted pants warna kuning. Waktu itu lagi jalan gitu di lorongnya, banyak jendela-jendela gitu. Terus tiba-tiba aku ditusuk- mati. (yes, it was that graphic.)

Pernah lagi mimpi jatuh dari eskalator. Ceritanya Deba ke rumahku. Terus ga tau kenapa kita jalan-jalan gitu pas malem, naik mobil pink kea mobil Barbie. Ternyata nyampe ke mall gitu. Dalemnya bagus banget, tinggi, keren kea istana. Di dalem mall ada sungainya gitu. Pas mau naik ke lantai 2, eskalatornya jatuh. Jadi WOOOOOOTTT gitu.

Terus aku mimpi dikasih sarung bantal sama Fisca. Gambarnya Frankie. Belom lagi mimpi beli garpu. Penting abis.

Mimpi kea gitu ada maksudnya ga ya ? I mean, kalo ga ada maksudnya terus ngapain aku mimpi aneh-aneh kea gitu ? Kebanyakan berimajinasi ? Terus aku cari-cari online juga ga ada yang mimpi kea gitu. Biasanya yang ada itu mimpi hewan, warna, angka, gitu gitu. Ga ada mimpi beli garpu atau naik kapal selam. This is getting scary O_O

Ada sih yang jelasin soal mimpi di mall gitu :

Mall
To dream that you are at the mall, represents your attempts in making a favorable impression on someone. The mall is also symbolic of materialism and the need to keep up with the trends, fads, and/or the latest technology

HA. MENGERIKAN. BISA. BENER. GINI.

Kalo misalnya yang ini bener berarti kan yang lain ada maksudnya juga ? idk O_O

xxzara

fame && shame

2009-08-31T00:41:00.000-07:00

Hello whores. Lack of updates ? Yes.

Ulangan harian memang menyebalkan. Jadi jarang ngeblog nih huhu :\ (padahal males) Sekarang lagi rajin main VF. Blog dinomorduakan xD maaf yaa.

Tapi beneran deh, VF addictive banget. Dulu aku udah pernah bikin sih, but i was too 'dark'. LOL merasa poser banget deh xD Terus niat bikin lagi. Pas udah semangat-semangatnya ternyata username 'ZaraZombie' udah dipake. Ahh :( Jadinya pake x_Zombified. Tapi ga tau kenapa tiba-tiba ga mood main VF. Aku tinggal deh.

Habis VF, aku coba mainan Buzznet. Lumayan sih, banyak seleb-seleb gitu. && Hanna Beth is there ♥ Yah, jadi tertarik bikin deh. Awalnya seru juga, fotonya keren-keren but that's the problem. Jadi ga pede :\ Yes, i do get shitloads of pic comments on Facebook but that's Facebook. && THIS IS BUZZNET, bitches ! Banyak scene queens. Banyak artis. Banyak orang terkenal. Jadi sebenernya pilihan cuma 2: terkenal atau tersingkir.

&& i gave up. Rasanya ga bakal jadi super-duper terkenal kea mereka. Internet famous, that's it. Jadinya aku hapus account Buzznet. Tetep-tetep aja di FB sama Twitter. But this is the awesome part : saya cukup terkenal di twitter xDD. Iya bener. Banyak yang ngefollow (sebagian besar bot memang) tapi banyak juga yang baik :D

Terus waktu kapan itu ada yang bilang ke Fisca :

"Wah ini Fisca yang di The Boloters ya ?"
"Hehe iya, ko tau ?"
"The Boloters kan terkenal. Apalagi di FB, yang fotonya diedit-edit gitu. Keren !"

Saya bangga. Yah, paling nggak kita dibilang keren xD Padahal kita kan kalo ngedit foto cacat.

JOE ZARA JONAS IS THE SEX !

Me is currently on Facebook && Twitter :D

Terus beberapa hari yang lalu aku bikin VF lagi. Usernamenya xZaraZombie, since ZaraZombie udah dipake xP Memulai hidup baru deh. Ngeadd-ngeadd lagi, join cults lagi. Terus sekarang ada dilema baru : beauty cults.

Beauty cults itu grup tapi mesti pake application. Jadi mesti jawab pertanyaan, ngepost foto, gitu deh O_O && yes, based on brain, beauty, && behaviour. Dan sepertinya saya tidak termasuk. Pengen sih join but yes, nunggu waktu :)

rate && comments are greatly appreciated ♥

CONGRATULATIONS ! YOUR PARENTS JUST JOINED FACEBOOK. YOUR LIFE IS OFFICIALLY OVER.

2009-08-22T23:07:00.000-07:00

Lack of updates, huh ? Ahaha maaf yaa lagi banyak tugas nih grrrr. Mana sekarang jarang bisa menguasai laptop. Tebak kenapa.

IBU SAYA TEROBSESI INTERNET.

Yes. Ironis memang. Iya kalo laptopnya ada banyak, atau pokoknya dia ga gangguin kegiatan onlineku gapapa ya. Lah ini ? Tiap aku pulang sekolah kan biasanya langsung online. Sekarang mesti dipake ibu. Terus kalo udah mau gantian mesti berantem.

"Bu pinjem laptop dong."
"Kakak itu ya, tiap hair main internet. Kapan belajarnya ?"
"Yaah kan cuma sebentar."
"Apanya. Kamu main seharian gitu cuma buat buka Facebook."

NO SHIT. Ih aku kan main laptop ga cuma buat buka FB. Kadang blogwalking. Kadang download. Kadang nonton YouTube. && Twitter- fo sho. KAN GA CUMA FACEBOOOOKKKK. Gah. Emangnya dia. Cuma dipake main Facebook. Mending ya kalo cuma bales wall atau apa. Dia terobsesi main quiz. Iya, quiz di Facebook yang semacam "Cewek Seperti Apakah Kamu ?" or something. Kedengerannya alay banget.

Seriously- why do parents join Facebook ?

Mau ngobrol sama temen-temen kuliah ? Oke.

Mau main Pet Society ? You already have one Sir, keluarga anda di rumah.

Mau nguping anaknya ngobrol apa ? Thankyou.

Mentang-mentang punya FB ya, kan pasti ngeadd anaknya. Dulu aku santai aja sih, mikirnya "ah paling juga ntar ibu jarang online" EH TERNYATA. Tiaaaaaap hari online. Belom lagi aku kan juga takut dia baca statusku atau apa gitu ya. Jadinya aku remove. Terus belom lama dia tanya, "Kak kok profile kamu ga ada di friendlist ibu ya ?" Aku diem aja. "Coba add lagi. Facebook error kali." YAY ME.

Pas dia ngeadd lagi, tetep aku confirm. But ha, i'm not that dumb :D Jadi pas dia online terus ditinggal ngapain gitu, profileku aku hide di homenya. Jadinya ga diremove, tapi ga liat aku ngapain. HA xD

Belom lagi habis aku bikin Skype. Langsung deh, "Ih kakak aku bikinin dong !"

Sebagai anak yang baik, langsung aku bikinin deh. Rasanya agak menyesal. Sekarang tiap malem telpon-telponaaaaan terus. TERIAK TERIAK. Eww. Mana kadang agak ga nyambung lagi kalo telpon.

Tante : "Yaampun mbak apa kabar ?"
Ibu : "Baik, aduh kapan main ke Surabaya ?"
Tante : "Ga tau nih, masih pada sekolah..."
Ibu : "Lebaran ke Purwokerto kan ?"
Tante : "Iya, aduh bentar ya Nadia mau tidur..."

FYI, Nadia adalah adek sodara saya yang agak autis.

Nadia : *teriak teriak di depan webcam* "HALOOO INI NADIAAAA"
Ibu : "Iya sayang, tidur dulu yaa..."
Nadia : "HALOOOOOO"
Tante : "Nadia ayo cepet tidur !"
Nadia : "YAAAAAAAWWWRRRR !"

Mungkin digeret ke kamar atau apa. Tiba-tiba kakak sodara saya main piano. Adegan terulang : Nadia teriak-teriak, tante basa-basi, dan jeng-jeng-jeng-jeng. Parahnya lagi, itu terjadinya jam 11 malem, di kamarku. How awesome.

CONGRATULATIONS ! YOUR PARENTS JUST JOINED FACEBOOK. YOUR LIFE IS OFFICIALLY OVER.

xxzara

stardust

2009-08-16T21:19:00.000-07:00

pic by numbpurplehaze.

when the stars burn out,

can we still write their names down

in history books, or are

fallen stars not worth

remembering? can we

remember them, even if

they're not? can we say

they are beautiful, even if

the world disagrees? and can we

turn them into powder;

make them into

stardust?

some things are

more beautiful fallen

than flying. things like

stars and angels and

love.

(things like you.)

if we were stardust:

i would be red

and you would be

blue. together, we

would be purple,

and

we would be so

beautiful.

Run Baby, Run !

2009-08-16T03:43:00.000-07:00

Kemaren ada acara 17an di sekolah. Yes, jalan sehat. Sebenernya bukan jalan sehat ya. Definisi 'jalan sehat' itu kan jalan-jalan yang bikin sehat. LAH INI ? Capek. LIKE WHOA. Mana jalannya jauh banget. Masih mending lah pake rute yang kea dulu, soalnya ada gosip katanya diganti sekolah-kayoon-delta O_O itu JAUH BANGET. Ternyata tetep sih, sekolah-lapangan hoki-gubeng *sigh*

Pokoknya sejauh yang digarisin pink itu. Jauh banget.
Namanya jalan sehat, kita jalannya pelan. Kan kalo jalannya cepet-cepet berarti lari dong. Tidak sesuai dengan definisi jalan. As usual, aku jalan sambil nyanyi-nyanyi sama Andien :D Ga bawa headset sih (rusak soalnya) jadi cuma teriak-teriak gitu di jalan. Nyetelnya yang electrocore gitu, tapi yang ngefek bikin semangat pas Check Yes Juliet - We The Kings :D

"Run baby, run, don't ever look back"

- Check Yes Juliet by We The Kings

That song stucks in my head all the time xDD

Jalan sehatnya juga ada doorprize gitu. Dan kerennya, kupon yang ini tulisannya bener DOORPRIZE, bukannya DOORPRICE kea yang sering ada gitu xDD AHAHAHA. Kan kuponnya ada 3, yang dua dimasukin kotak yang satu disimpen. Aku malah masukin yang harusnya disimpen ke kotak. AHHHHHH.

Pas pengumuman doorprizenya itu aku udah semangat pengen dapet sepeda :D dan parahnya ga dapet. Andien malah dapet kipas angin xDD lumayan sih. Beruntung dia ga dapet sepeda.

"Zar, nanti kalo aku dapet sepeda gimana ?"
"Ya udah, maju, ambil, bawa pulang."
"Aku malu Zar."
"Malu ngapain ?"
"Itu ya kan ntar kalo menang suruh naikin sepeda gitu."
"Terus ?"
"Aku ga bisa naik sepeda."

GAHAHAHAHAHA. Baru tau deh Andien ga bisa naik sepeda. Lagian keanya dia ga mau dapet sepeda habis liat Bu Erning- habis dapet sepeda, kesenengan, muter-muter terus nabrak tiang bendera.

Mmmkaaay that's all, terus besok aku ada upacara :) doakan ga pingsan atau muntah atau apa yaa.

xxzara

speak no evil.

2009-08-13T04:41:00.000-07:00

Tadi seharian ga ada pelajaran. 17 gitu, lomba-lomba as usual. Parahnya lagi sama Isol aku diikutin lomba pidato. Yes, English. Apa banget coba ya. Mana teksnya bikin sendiri lagi. How awesome. EFF YOU ISOL.

Sebagai anak yang tertindas, saya nyerah. Pagi-pagi langsung nyari ide buat speechnya gitu. And here's what i got....

August 17th, 64 years ago, a flag was raised out of a window at Pegangsaan Timur 56 to mark the revolutionary government. Fast forward to today and we are all still here, waiting for our government to revolutionize our politics, our livelihood, our society, our future. Often I am asked, “What do we truly celebrate during Independence Day ?” Therefore, we tend to ask now, “We may be independent, but are we free?”
There are so many ways to answer that question. Independence is a condition. It is a state of living wherein we can say that we have the power to write our own destiny. Freedom is a decision. It is our choice to act when we should, our willingness to act when we must. So – we may be independent, but are we free? Yes. As long as we remember that independence can only be won by an act of freedom.

You are here at the JHS 6 Surabaya to be at the frontier of change. You can produce medicines that are cheaper and more effective in order to provide better health care to our people. You can build bridges. You can power the nation. Because of you, our people can live better, walk farther and aim higher, is that not independence?
Soon we're going to celebrate the independence we share as one people. So let us remember why we are here. Students, you are here from among the best of the best in order to become even better. We are here to help our students achieve the promise of their potential. And together, we work through each day in order to create new horizons for tomorrow.
Happy Independence Day! Thank you very much.

Sangat menggombal sekali. Ga terlalu panjang sih, but it sounds cool :D

Pas dipanggil, aku maju dengan pedenya. JENG-JEEEENG. Mulai membaca. Satu kalimat. Dua. My hand was trembling like crazy. Ga tau kenapa ya, tapi tanganku kalo udah gemeteran gitu ga bisa berhenti O_O

"Thankyou very much !" Semua tepuk tangan. Saya merasa seperti Obama. Aku langsung balik lagi ke kelas gitu. Terus sekitar 1 jam gitu aku dipanggil lagi. I'M IN THE BIG FIVE ! Aww nggak meyakinkan sama sekali. Tapi gapapa deh, jadinya aku maju terus baca itu lagi HAHAHAA. And it went well ! Saya membaca dengan lancar dan nggak gemeteran :D

thankyou very much ! xDD

xxzara

Overheard in Angkot.

2009-08-12T03:29:00.000-07:00

Kemaren aku bolos les. Capek sih, tapi ternyata kemaren anak-anak malah pada nonton DVD. Gaahh. Jadinya aku naik angkot pulang biar ga ketauan bolos xDD

Di angkot ada 3 anak yang dari sekolahku gitu, cowok kelas 7 sama 8. Awalnya diem-dieman gitu sih, tapi lama-lama ngobrol dengan hebohnya.

Anak 1: "Eh acara promosi Rexona itu kapan sih ?"
Anak 2: "Ga tau deh, besok kali."
Anak 3: "Iya mas, barang-barangnya aja udah disiapin gitu."
Zara : *REXONA ? LIKE WTF.*
Anak 2: "Eh tapi ya mesti ko modelnya Rexona itu pamer ketek sih ?"
Anak 1: "YA IYALAH REXONA KAN PAKENYA DI KETEK BEGOOOO."
Anak 3: "Moga-moga Rexonanya ga beracun deh."
Anak 1: "HA ? beracun gimana coba ?"
Anak 3: "Kamu inget pas kita keracunan Fanta ?"
Anak 2: "AAAHH IYA !"
Anak 3: "TUH KAAAN NANTI KALO KETEK KITA KERACUNAN GIMANA ?"
Anak 1: "Kalian semua bego. BEGOOOOO."

Akhirnya saya menyimpulkan kalo Anak 1 adalah contoh adek kelas ideal.

xxzara

"wajahmu bagaikan akuarium."

2009-08-06T04:39:00.000-07:00

This week is going pretty fast. Rasanya baru kemaren hari Senin, sekarang udah Kamis :D ahh me likey.

Kemaren aku ketawa-ketawa sampe hampir sekarat. Yes, i do laugh histerically. Sampe teriak-teriak, berhentinya lama lagi. Mana itu pas pelajaran Bahasa Indonesia. Gurunya galak banget. Biasanya kita panggil Bu Jahat. Fuckkk.

Jadi awalnya aku sama Yara bosen pas pelajarannya dia. Bayangin ya, 2 jam cuma bahas syair. Emang masih jaman ? Akhirnya pas bosen (& sebel liat tampangnya) kita gambar gurunya. Iya, di kertas coret-coretan gitu.

Jadinya, gambar mukanya malah mirip akuarium. Bunder, terus ada bintik-bintiknya gitu HAHAHAHA. Acara ketawa-ketawa berlangsung sangat heboh. Rasanya ga bisa berhenti, tapi takut ketauan. Jadi cuma ngeluarin suara "bwhffftttttt." sambil gebrak-gebrak meja xDD

Belom lagi pas aku cerita ke Yara soal postingannya Aho.

"heh .. koe aho , ndang maju nulis aksara jawa"
hell perasaan gue ngga mbuat salah ama orang ini
dan anak laen juga lebih rame dari aku . *cuek bebek*

"heh ... ndang majuo"
oh hell , napa guru ini masih hidup aja
aku akirnya njawab dengan cara anak kecil yang polos dan tanpa rasa bersalah
"bu, aku kan ngga bisa aksara jawa sama sekali"

Katanya Diah, 'koe' itu artinya anak monyet. Refleks kan aku langsung "GAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA" dengan hebohnya. Kan kalo diartikan jadi gini :

"heh .. aho anak monyet , cepetan maju nulis aksara jawa."

Aslinya 'koe' itu juga bisa berarti 'kamu' sih. But in this case, 'anak monyet' sounds way cooler :D

And yes, sepanjang pelajaran syair itu the only thing in my mind is "Bu Jahat, wajahmu bagaikan akuarium."

Sequins - Week Ending 2nd August 2009

2009-08-02T03:20:00.000-07:00

Yes, another new section inspired by Miss Gala Darling :D

I'm going to put EVERYTHING i love this week in this new section, enjoy ♥

by Eveline Tanuwidjaja

Ketemuan sama Dea :D
Yes, awalnya kita kenal di Twitter (iya ga sih ?) terus lama-lama suka menggila xDD Kenalnya belom lama, tapi rasanya udah YAY banget gitu. Biasanya chat di YM, heboh di FB && of course TWITTER ! Kemaren kita ketemuan di Cito :D ngopi, muter-muter, ngobrol, foto-foto, ah it really was fun :D can't wait to see you again !
We The Kings
Udah tau dari dulu sih, tapi baru menggila tadi pagi :P Kemaren minta lagu-lagunya dari Nana. Pertama denger biasa aja sih, tapi habis baca liriknya langsung "ZOMG THAT'S MEEE !" Apalagi yang All Again For You. AAAHHHH :(
Let Them Eat Models.
What's much better than designer cupcakes ?
Menggila di Yahoo! tiap weekend xD
We do. Biasanya, tiap malem minggu gitu Twitter rame banget. Profile sampe berantakan dibuat chat xDD sampe jam 11an gitu, but still it was fun :D Jasmine, Rachel, Vania, Fisca, i heart you bitches ♥
It's pure ecstasy. Coklatnya mantep. Tiap hari aku bisa habis 3 bungkus. Murah lagi !Rp. 500 :D YAYNESS ! Tapi jarang ada, maklum enak jadi laris grrr.
Teenage Stupidity
A slash fanfic by Toasty Vampire :D
IT'S EFFIN CUTE ! i grinned like the Cheshire Cat when reading that :3 Frankie seems so cute, && Gee loves him a lot xDD kinda reminds me of those old times though. Too bad she left it without even finishing that fic :( thankyou Anti for recommending :D

now i really am fucking excited.
DEATH BEFORE DISCO !

sugar kisses,
xxzara

Public Typo #3

2009-08-01T07:37:00.000-07:00

bedak ? LIKE WTF.
di deket rumah Nabila, Ketintang-Surabaya.

2009-07-30T03:52:00.003-07:00

"life is too awesome to waste your time thinking about someone who doesn't treat you right."

- Jack Barakat

yes, things happened.

2009-07-25T19:05:00.000-07:00

OKAY THIS IS SICK. i haven't write here for like gazillion years. I mean, last post: July 11st ? Saya merasa sangat berdosa.

Things happened. Mulai dari keracunan Fanta sampe tes SBI. Yes, things happened. Sekarang aku kan naik kelas 9D. Biasa sih, banyak anak-anak yang dari 8C && it SUCKS. Apa ya, aku rada ga nyambung sama mereka. Anak-anak itu kan ngumpul sendiri gitu, aku paling sama Andien Diah dll.

Masalahnya lagi, sekarang aku bener-bener ga ada temen ngobrol. Anak-anak lagi menggila drama korea && AKU BENCI. I mean, pemainnya aja ga cakep. Ceritanya ribet, sama aja kea sinetron Indonesia. Mereka suka apanya sih ? Oke ya, selera emang beda-beda but i can't stand this. Anak-anak juga lagi pada suka boyband Korea. Mereka kan cuma menang tampang. Bayangin ya, nyanyi aja pada 9 orang gitu. Emang suaranya kedengeran ? O_O yang lebih parah lagi, dia juga ikut-ikutan. She was more hardcore than me terus sekarang malah ikutan nyetel RnB. GAAAHH.

Enough bashing. Aku habis keracunan Fanta. Bukan cuma aku sih, satu sekolah. Jadi kan Jumat minggu kemaren ada promosi Fanta gitu ya, yang rasa lemon jeruk. Semua anak dikasih kupon gitu, ntar dituker Fanta 1 kaleng. Aku santai aja, minum terus foto-foto. Pulangnya kan aku les dulu, itu juga gapapa sih. Nah paginya, aku ga bisa bangun. Tiduuuuur aja di kamar. Rasanya kedinginan. Pusing. Males. Aku cuma tweeting aja di kasur. Terus ngeliatin status FB anak-anak, ko pada sakit semua ? Pas udah masuk baru deh pada mikir kalo itu gara-gara Fanta. Padahal itu kan long weekend, jadi ga bisa main deh :( mana waktu Sabtunya ada PeeWee Gaskins di SMA 15, jadi ga nonton deh :( SCREW YOU FANTA.

&& today is my last weekeend in this month. Mulai minggu depan, setiap Sabtu-Minggu aku latihan buat tes SBI. Yes, another nonsense. Aslinya aku ga pengen ikut sih, kan ntar juga ga jamin aku bakal sekolah di luar negeri. Ini juga ga ngefek buat SMA so what's the point ? Jadi ga bisa main deh :\ Tapi lumayan juga kali ya latihannya buat UNAS.

mungkin aku bakal jarang update ya :P

So yeah, that's it. OH && I CHANGED THAT CRAPPY LAYOUT ! YAYNESS !

love && sequins,

xxzara

Photo Portofolio #1

2009-07-11T05:24:00.000-07:00

Since i'm a cam-whore, terus daripada foto-foto cuma dimasukin Facebook, mending aku masukin sini aja ya xDD

comments are greatly appreciated ♥

Miss Murder
inspired by: Miss Murder - AFI
taken by: Deba
props by: Opang

without you i can't see.
inspired by: Ashley - Escape The Fate
taken by: Deba

I WEAR THOSE SHIRTS LIKE TOO MUCH XDDD

hyper-love,
xxzara

Bis Kota, Strawberry Fondue && Other Random Things

2009-07-07T03:01:00.000-07:00

Oke, as usual ZOMG I HAVEN'T BEEN HERE FOR LIKE AGES !

Kemaren internetku ngadat, kehidupan liburanku hampa :\ tapi ini udah dibenerin ahahaha.

Liburan aku ga kemana-mana, tetep di rumah z. Paling cuma ngemall, internet, main, standar lah. Nah hari Kamis, 2/7 aku ke TP sama Aiia :)

Itu kita baru pertama kali ketemuan. Awalnya kenal lewat Twitter gitu ya, terus tiba-tiba dia mau ke Surabaya (rumahnya di Malang) terus ngajak ketemuan O_O weird, i know. Tapi dia baik ko <3>

Akhirnya kita mau ketemuan di TP. Since rumahku jauh dari TP, terus ga ada angkot, jadinya aku naik bis. SENDIRIAN. Awalnya aku kirain 'ZOMG BIS ITU KAN SEREM YA GYAAAAA' ternyata nggak juga sih. Aku naik bis Damri biru yang AC itu. Bersih, cepet, adem, murah lagi. cuma 4 ribu XDD terus aku dianterin Mbak Win ke deket terminal gitu, nyegat bis. Terus naik deeeeeh :D

bis biru, i heart you.
Bisnya lumayan cepet sih, ga berhenti-berhenti gitu. Dari rumah ke TP aja cuma habis 1 jam :D Awalnya aku bingung sih, ntar gimana berhentiin bisnya ? Kan kalo angkot ada belnya gitu ya, kalo ga teriak aja "KIRI PAAAKKK !" ntar kan berhenti. Nah ini ? Ga ada belnya && keanya ga mungkin teriak. Aku panik di bis, takut ga bisa berhenti. Mana ibu-ibu yang di sebelah itu telpoooon terus grrr. Ternyata bisnya itu berhenti di halte -____- pas udah mau nyampe TP gitu kondekturnya teriak "TP AYOO TP !" ya udah deh aku turun.

the one && only Tunjungan Plaza
Pas nyampe di TP, aku ke McD. Mau ketemuan disana gitu. And here she comessss....Ga kea yang aku bayangin. Seriously. AHAHAHA biarin deh. Aiia sama keluarganya gitu, habis ketemu mama dan anggota keluarga lainnya kita jalan-jalaaaaan :D
Since TP itu luas, kita bingung mau kemana dulu. Kalo ga salah pertama itu ke Disc Tarra. Aiia beli CDnya PeeWee Gaskins terus aku liat-liat Lamb Of God. Terus ke McD and so on. Muter-muter Zara, Sogo dan toko-toko lainnya. Ada gitu ya sepatu lucu banget di Zara, warnanya ungu gitu ♥ tapi harganya 5oo ribu z.
And i spotted this :

happines in cups :D
Habis capek muter-muter terus dia mau pulang. I'll miss you dude :\
Pulangnya aku naik bis lagi, tapi ga dapet yang AC zz. Sama aja, aku kirain kotor serem panas dan mengerikan ternyata nggak juga. Cuma penuh sih XDD && this one confuses me:

kacangnya gratis ?
Banyak orang lewat gitu, banyak yang jualan. Tiba-tiba ada yang kasih aku kacang. Aku bingung. Di bis dapet kacang gratis ya ? Aku liatin aja itu kacang. Orang-orang juga pada dapet. TAPI DIBALIKIN LAGI ! Aku baru tau kalo kacangnya dijual O_O
Hari Sabtu, 4/7 aku ke Surabaya Expo. Lumayan sih, banyak sample gratis gitu XDDD Oke aslinya Surabaya Craft Expo gitu, banyak yang jual perhiasan, baju gitu. Tapi ada yang ~~jual~~ bagi-bagi ini:

AWW YEAH MAN, CHOCOLATE FOUNTAIN !

&& STRAWBERRIEESSSS !

Aku heboh. Mungkin kea "GYAAAA STROBERI SAMA COKLAT AAAHHH !!" mana gratis lagi xDD ya udah aku deket-deket situ aja, kalo ga ada yang liat aku makanin itu stroberi <3

And what's much better, darlings ?

FREE COFFEEEEEE !
Barang gratisan memang keren :D

peace love && coffee,

xxzara

farewell :D

2009-06-28T05:48:00.000-07:00

ZOMG i haven't been here for like ages ! *hugs*
Maklum sibuk, ngurusin perpisahan, rapotan, jalan, whoa gitu lah XDDD ahahaha.
Tapi sekarang udah libur sih, mati mengering di rumah zz.

Kemaren tanggal 24o6o9 ada perpisahan kelas :D gitu lah, makan-makan, foto-foto, haha seru :) takut ga sekelas lagi deh. Itu kan temanya kea award gitu ya, jadi tiap anak dapet award gitu. Standar sih, dekornya juga ga yang 'woooow' banget tapi seru :D ILY guys <3

Pokoknya ada sedotan dipotong kecil-kecil gitu, terus dibagiin ke anak-anak. Terus disuruh nyari yang panjangnya sama. Iya, panjangnya sama. Dari 35 anak dikelas terus disuruh cari sedotan yang panjangnya sama ? ZOMG. Aku putus asa ya. Jadi ujung-ujungnya cuma 'AAHHH AHHH !' gitu-gitu aja, ga berusaha. Tapi akhirnya Andien menyelamatkan hidupku :D
Dia tiba-tiba dateng, terus "Zara ! Keanya sedotan kita sama deh !" daaan jeng-jeng, beneran sama. Ternyata punyanya Dendy sama Calvin juga sama XD akhirnya kita juara 1 deeeeh :D YAY MEHHH.

Habis mainan sedotan geje membanggakan itu, baru bagi-bagi award. Kan pada suruh maju satu-satu gitu ya, terus sambil bacain awardnya. Awalnya aku kan tenang-tenang aja ya, tapi sampe terakhir ko aku belom dapet award ? Kepanikan kumat. Aku heboh bisik-bisik "oh-em-gee, apa jangan-jangan aku ga dapet ya ?" Setelah menunggu rada lama (dan sedikit heboh) akhirnya aku dipanggil juga. Guess what.

aku dapet Miss Goth.

Yes, Goth with a capital G.
Itu kan ironis banget ya, since i'm NOT goth. Aku kirain aku dapet Miss Internet Famous atau Miss Cupcakes and Glitter or such. Malah GOTH. Hello, saya yang cerah-ceria-penuh warna dibilang goth -__- DARIMANA ? Heran deh.

Whatever. Yang penting kan dapet award ya ahahaha.
And here is.... *drumrolls* the complete list :

PANCHEE AWARD 2k8 - 2k9

'mr innocent' ccw
'mr chess master' Dendy
'mr talkative' Isol
'mr genius' Tiyul
'mr red-boom' Ponco
'mr melodi' Gundul
'mr lebaii' Fauz
'mr tut' Husen
'mr tiny' WEM
'mr big' Zaki
'mr artist 1' Andra
'mr artist 2' Dio
'ms net' Ruth
'ms heboh' Yara
'ms gaul' Andien
'ms elegant' Atik
'mr gokil' Abizar
'mr weird' Noval
'ms sleepy' Nadyoni
'ms goth' Zara -_____-
'ms princess albino' Acha
'ms fashionista' Desi
'ms PINK' Diah
'ms no comment' Febby
'ms maximal' Grandma
'ms minimal' Nabnabb
'ms calm' Omi
'ms ponytail' Nika
'ms shining hair' Dania
'mr liverpool holic' Iin
'mr tower' Aho
'ms aliim' Ajiz
'mr ndut' HAP
'ms narsiis' Galuh
'ms biology' TyaChya

That's it.
Seru kan, semua dapet award :D

Cuma sekarang aku takutnya ga sekelas lagi sama mereka. You know, that placement test thingy. Kan ga enak kalo ntar mereka semua sekelas lagi terus aku sendirian :( yes, i'm not that smart, but i'm not that stupid either. Standar.

Kemaren rapotan juga aku dapet standar. Oke, Andien ranking sepuluh ya, tapi aku nggak xDD ahahaha. Mungkin kalo diurut nilai sekitar ranking 15an. 15 dari 35 anak. SANGAT STANDAR. Sangat menengah, nyaris menengah kebawah memang -_____-

love && glitter,
xozara

Po-Po-Po-Poker Face

2009-06-19T06:40:00.000-07:00

Yah aku udah lama ga ngepost lagi kaaan :( kemaren habis placement test sih grrrr.

Jadi sekarang kan udah ga ada pelajaran soalnya habis UAS, di kelas cuma mainan deh :) pulang siang lagi. Enak deh, mendingan heboh sama anak-anak di sekolah daripada mengering di rumah xDD tapi habis ini ada perpisahan sama class meeting gitu sih, ga penting -_____-

Class meetingnya hari Senin sampe Selasa. Terus kan kea biasanya, anak-anak pada ditanyain mau ikut apa. Aku pengen ikut sih, tapi APA ? Kan ga meyakinkan ya kalo aku ikut basket atau futsal atau apa gitu, aku ga meyakinkan. Trust me. Akhirnya aku tanya Grandma.

"Grand, lombanya apa aja sih ?"
"Uh, basket, futsal, badminton, remi..."
"HA REMI ?
"Iya Zar.
"Remi yang kartu itu ? Yang mainan kartu ?
"Iya. Mau ikut ?"

Awalnya aku kirain class meeting itu lombanya yang tipikal lomba sekolah gitu. Basket, futsal and such. Lah ini remi. Parahnya lagi aku suruh ikut. Paling parahnya aku ga bisa. Tapi aku kan sungkan kalo nggak mau. Lagian aku pengen ikut lomba. Daripada ga ikut, aku iya aja.

Nah seminggu ini aku udah mengamati anak-anak di kelas main remi. Keanya gampang deh. Aku juga bisa dong. Malu-maluin banget kan kalo main remi aja ga bisa. HARUS BISA !

Akhirnya aku latian di rumah. Iya, latian. Sama Mbak Win xDDD mwahahaha. Biar seru, pas latian itu ada theme songnya.

Theme songnya Poker Face - Lady GaGa sama Waking Up In Vegas - Katy Perry. Memotivasi banget deh, trust me. Rasanya itu beneran taruhan gitu. Hahaha MP3 kadang ngefek gitu kan xD Rasanya pas bagian "Po-po-po-poker face' itu semangatnya booooooost gitu *lebay* MWAHAHAHAHA. Menambah motivasi menang :D

Lagian kalo ga ikut lomba kan ga seru. Andien sama Diah ikut basket. Yara katanya ikut badminton. Masa Zara ga ikut ? Toh cuma main kartu. Duduk, keluarin kartunya, TA-DA ! KALAH ! Eh ga juga sih. Kan mesti optimis yaa. Aku juga ga bodo-bodo amat xP

Anyway aku bingung cari baju perpisahan. Masa suruh pake rok. Ada yang punya ide ?

glitter && hyper-love,

xozara

Quick Update minggu ini :)

2009-06-15T07:17:00.000-07:00

OH-EM-GEE i haven't been here for like ages ! *lebay* IMISSYOUUUHH ♥
Oke jadi kan kemaren aku habis UAS, jadi aku ga sempet ngeblog soalnya belajar (males maksudnya) jadi sekarang aku post quick update seminggu ini aja yaaa :D

Senin, 8 Juni 2009
Hari pertama UAS. Udah lewat seminggu, aku lupa udah ngapain aja zz. Pokoknya ulangannya lancar, panjaganya ga galak, terus pulang xDD

Selasa, 9 Juni 2009
Udah lupa juga -____- waktu ulangan aku dijaga Bu Julia. Jelek. Mukanya itu super nyebelin gitu ya grrrrr. Beli Timtam Crush seperti biasa :)

Rabu, 10 Juni 2009
Soal Julia itu lagi. Jadi kan aku sama Andien sama Yara mau ke kantin, terus lewat tangga yang muter itu. Julia lewat deh. Andien heboh.

"Zar ada Jupe Zar ! Muter aja yok !"
"Ih gapapa kali, cuma lewat terus salaman terus ta-daaa. Beres !"
"Kalo dia ngamuk gimana ?"
"Kita kan ga ngapa-ngapain Ndien."

Akhirnya Jupe mulai berjalan mendekati kita.

"Zar kamu salaman duluan !"
*mengulurkan tangan*
"GA USAH !"

Aku sama Andien sama Yara terpana. If only kita ngikutin kamu Ndien, kita ga bakal kena dendam kesumat ini. SALAMAN AJA GA BOLEH.

Pulangnya anjem kejebak di Wonokromo. MACET TOTAL. Kan waktu itu SBY mau kesini, liat Jembatan Suramadu itu. Nah jembatannya kan di Perak ya, kenapa yang macet Wonokromo ? KENAPA ? Akhirnya daripada lama, anjemnya ke rumahku duluaaan xDD bangga gitu rasanya :D muahahahaha.

Kamis, 11 Juni 2009
Malemnya di Bioskop Trans TV ada House Of Wax. Aku mesti ga bisa tidur habis liat film ini. Sure, laugh at me. Aku takut kalo udah boneka-boneka atau patung gitu. Takut banget. Mesti bayangin kalo mereka hidup gitu, hiiiii. Akhirnya aku nonton ditemenin Mbak Win. Malemnya ga bisa tidur sampe jam 2.

Jumat, 11 Juni 2009

Apa ya, pokoknya aku bolos les :P
AH PELAJARANNYA BIOLOGI SAMA FISIKA. Parahnya lagi, aku ga ada pulsa. Ga bisa tanya HAP :( Gitu lah, jadinya aku contekan lokal, tanya-tanya sama Andien && teman-teman. Pasrah deh. Pelajarannya cuma sampe jam 9, sampe rumah aku langsung ngeneeeeet :D

Sabtu, 12 Juni 2009
Aku ke rumah Deba. Mau pemotretan xDD ahahaha ada temen-temennya juga sih. Tapi banyak yang alay. Ironis banget kan ?
Jadi kan kita ke salon, nemenin Deba potong rambut. Nah di salon itu mereka malah nyetel MP3. Oke itu hak asasi manusia ya, tapi ini di LOUDSPEAKER. Nyadar nak, nyadar.
Pemotretan berjalan lancar xDDD Deba pinter deh ! ahaahhaa ILY ♥

aku jadi inget The Master.
Minggu, 13 Juni 2009
She texted me. Awalnya aku komen di statusnya, terus aku hapus. Malah pindah ke wall, terus ke sms deh. Dia minta maaf soalnya udah ganggu and such.
"It's not you, it's me."
Klise banget emang ya, tapi beneran. Kamu ga salah apa-apa ko. Aku aja yang ga bisa lupain.

I lose myself in anguish for tonight
Help me get over you
One last false apology
Help me get over you."
Apology - Alesana

Harusnya kamu seneng ya sekarang. Aku seneng kalo kamu seneng. Oh and those Facebook status kills. I would beg you to stop. To stop thinking about suicide because you're so much more valuable than you realize.

˙ɹǝʌǝɹoɟ puɐ sʎɐʍןɐ ˙noʎ ǝʌoן ı

Malemnya, i cried myself to sleep. Untung dia ga liat tampangku kea gitu ya.

cupcake kisses,
xozara

by him , i mean that fag who tried to kiss her and she thinks he loves her .

2009-06-05T19:07:00.001-07:00

MWAHAHAHA iya postingan yang kemaren ga niat . Sekarang niat deh o_o

Oke jadi hari senin besok aku UAS . Iya , ulangan yang suruh bulet-buletin jawabannya itu . Nah sebelomnya kan mesti dikasih kartu UAS gitu ya . PUNYAKU NAMANYA SALAH . Kalo cuma salah hurufnya atau apa gitu gapapa ya , tapi kalo gini udah parah .

kartu UAS terlaknat itu .

That's not my name , that's MY EX'S FIRST FUCKIN NAME . Terlihat dengan jelas di kartu UASku . You know , that WOOOT feeling is back . Rasanya pengen meledak atau apa gitu . KAN MALU-MALUIN .

Terus barusan aku liat blognya . Ada 2 sih , yang baru itu sangat ga nguati . Isinya cuma band-band jepang gitu and such . I thought she was goth o_0 Yang satunya malah lebih ga nguati . Oke tapi lebih seru . Yaah semacam diarynya gitu . And she wrote about him . By him i mean that fag who tried to kiss her and she thinks he loves her . Sadly he's no better than me , saudara-saudara .

I still love her . Klise banget emang ya , tapi beneran . Reality is a bitch , i know . Oke they're in love , and i'm hurt , AND I HATE HIM . For being loved by her . Serasa pengen mati . Apalagi kalo pas liat Wall-to-Wall di Facebook . Lots of i love you's and such . KIRAIN AKU GA NGERTI APA ? Uhhh .

Atau dia malah seneng ya kalo liat aku gini ? Atau lebih parah lagi dia seneng ya kalo aku ga ada ? Gaaahh i dunno . Tapi aku seneng aja sih liat dia seneng , even if she's not with me . Tapi akhir-akhir ini dia suka diem aja sendirian di kelas gitu , gatau kenapa . Hello Mr. Boyfriend , don't you try to save her ?

i love you , you love him , we are not a family .

xozara

ILY besties <3

2009-06-04T05:25:00.000-07:00

As always , aku buka FB terus ngeliatin Wall-to-Wall . Biasa lah , paling isinya apaan gitu , TAPI KEMAREN NGGAK . Ada dia sama cowoknya itu- youknowwho . With a lot of i love you's . Gimana ga shock coba . Oke , mereka emang pacaran ya , tapi aku ga rela . Aku ga rela liat dia nangis-nangis gitu- ga jelas soal apa . Mereka ketemu aja diem . Mendingan dulu deh *apaan sih* .

"______ is crying ."

Oke statusnya gitu . But i'm the one who ended up crying to sleep . Sekarang aku malah perang status sama cowoknya di YM .

But i have my besties :) i love them mwoooreeeh !

Tadi sekelas main nasambel Kucing Garong , terus besok Diah ulang taun , tadi nyanyi-nyanyi Just Dance di tengah lapangan sama Andien , SERU . Tapi kadang pengen punya cewek juga rasanya .

Just Dance , it's gonna be okay :)

xozara

Mall-to-Mall

2009-06-01T03:44:00.000-07:00

Hari Minggu , aku mau nonton sama anak-anak . Niatnya nonton Night At The Museum 2 di Delta , tapi ternyata belom ada zzz . Akhirnya rencana di TP . Nah ternyata hari Minggu pagi itu ada TRYOUT .

Aku kirain tryout apaan , dibilanginnya wajib terus blahblahblah . Ternyata di GEDUNG WANITA . And FYI ya , Gedung Wanita itu bobrok . When i say bobrok , it means bobrok . Yang lebih parah lagi , yang ikut ALAY SEMUA . Pengen pulang deh . Alaynya semakin mengganas . Waktu di ruangannya , pas pada ngerjain alay yang cowok-cowok itu pada LEMPAR-LEMPARAN . Pengen aku ledakin aja .

Akhirnya selesai . Bahagiaaaaaa gitu rasanya . Pengen cepet-cepet nonton :D as always , aku sama Andien sok elit di TP xDD emang ya itu mall high-end gitu , jadi katanya "biar ga malu Zar" . Muahahahhaa . Masuk juga ke XXI . I was like 'WOAAAH XXI PASTI MAHAL' *norak* ternyata nggak juga , cuma 35 ribu :P ehehehehe . Ngantri deh , terus nunggu :)

Nontonnya kan di Theatre III , langsung muter-muter cari tempatnya . Yang aku belom tau , the light was SUPER DRAMATIC . Lampu kuning gitu , it's beautiful ♥ Iyaa dia emang mau ikut nonton sama kita , tapi ada PAPANYA . Ga nguati banget kan ? And she's not mine anymore :(

Sepanjang film aku ngakak habis-habisan sama Andien . KAHMUNRAH FTW ! Muahahahaha my current favourite quote , "i have comeBACK to life !" - Kahmunrah [ penekanan pada kata back ] Gampang deh ntar aku nulis soal ini :D Habis filmnya buyar , anak-anak pada pulang . Aku nebeng , mau ke Royal- ngemall lagi xDD

Di Royal kan ketemuan sama Anti , ya udah cuma muter-muter aja sih . Lumayan makan gratisan xDD raawwrrr . Sekarang Royal isinya alay semua :\ ewww . Sejauh mata memandang isinya alay . Ga seru banget .

Terus jam 5an gitu pulang deh . Tired as hell , and quite happy :D

xozara

Bandit Lee Way :D

2009-05-29T07:31:00.000-07:00

Oke telat banget ya , hype-nya udah kemaren xD kemaren internetku mati sih grrrr . Okaaay so we all knew kalo Gee udah punya anak ! Hore awalnya aku tau di sekolah :D

Jadi waktu itu aku lagi istirahat di kelas . Mumpung aho bawa laptop , aku nebeng buka Twitter :D Nah waktu lagi buka itu , ada yang tweet "Gerard congrats for Miss Bandit Lee Way !" I was like , WOOAAHH . Jadi itu anaknya ? Aku mulai epilepsi .

"OH-EM-GEE AHO GERARD UDAH PUNYA ANAK !"
"Ha ?"
"AAAHHHH BANDIT LEE WAY !"
"Zar , ga segitunya kali ."
"MARRY ME BANDIIIT !"
"oke oke Bandit ."

Nah terus aku mulai liat-liat Twitter . Ternyata beneran . Aku semakin menggila . Pada bilang Bandit itu cowok . Aku super-duper epilep . Tweeting sama Vania juga <3>

Ironis emang ya kalo inget Frerard . Kalo misalnya Frerard beneran ada , Frankie would be in a total mess :\ satu sisi seneng , tapi kan Gee sama Lyn-Z :( ah whutever . Frerard has breathed its last i think.... such irony .

But i really believe that Gee's baby really belongs to Frankie x3

xozara

WHAT THE HELL IS PHYSICS ?

2009-05-27T06:26:00.000-07:00

Tadi aku ulangan fisika . As always , ga belajar soalnya ntar niat nyontek . Tenang-tenang aja di jemputan , ntar juga nyontek Andien . Di kelas juga diem aja . Tenang , nunggu ulangan . Waktu udah bel , penjaganya masuk , ternyata yang jagain kelasku Pak ______ .

Aku shock . Gitu lah , tipikal guru olahraga , galak , kalo ngeliatin serem . Lah ini dia jaga pas FISIKA . Pengen mati aja zz . Pas soalnya udah dibagiin , tambah parah . Aku kan ga belajar sama sekali ya , soalnya itu OMFG paraaahhhh . 5 soal tapi essay semua . Mau noleh ke Yara ga bisa . Mampus .

Aho ga bisa buat nyontek . Nomer 1 aja belom aku kerjain . Mau tanya , takut ketauan . MAMPUSSS .

"Ho , yang ini gambarnya gimana ?"
"Ah gatau Zar , sana kerjain sendiri ."
"Tapi aku ga bisa Ho !"
"Ya udah diem ."

Putus asa , aku coret-coret asal aja . Yang lain belom dikerjain . Eh tiba-tiba bel gitu . Aku panik . Pengen nangis gitu deh . Bayangin ya , kamu lagi ulangan fisika , gurunya galak , belom ngerjain SAMA SEKALI sampe 10 menit terakhir . Mau mati aja . Dengan super duper pasrah aku kumpulin aja , padahal yang udah baru nomer 1 DAN ITU MENGARANG . Anak-anak lain keanya pada bisa . Yes , N.E.R.D.S . Ya Tuhan , ampuni aku .

Habis fisika , ulangannya biologi . Aku yang dendam sama ulangan tadi langsung menggila . Biologinya aku kerjain cuma sekitar 10 menit (tapi bisa loh) MWAHAHAHAHA . Siangnya aku ada fisika 3 jam . Ga bawa buku , males ngapa-ngapain , laper . Akhirnya aku bikin iniiiii :

F+G=♥
FRERARD FOREVER !

Mmmkaay that was just random :D
xozara

I Hate Monday

2009-05-23T23:25:00.001-07:00

GRRRR Senin . Habis enak-enak liburan , terus masuk . Iya , enakan sekolah daripada mengering di rumah . TAPI MALES . Kalo ga ada pelajaran gitu gapapa , lah ini malah ada biologi sama fisika zz . Mana besok ulangan lagi . AAARGH .

Oh sekarang aku ada guru biologi baru dari Malaysia . Namanya Miss Salina . Baik sih , kalo ngomong lucu xD mwahahaha tapi tugasnyaa OMFG ribet . Masa besok suruh bawa-bawa kuteks ? Aku ga bisa bayangin kuteksnya mau diapain zz . Tapi seru juga lah bisa praktek-praktek gitu , daripada dulu sama Mam Erna bawelnyaaaa . Kata Aho "Kea bebek ." Iya juga sih , bawel ribet dan tugasnya juga aneh-aneh .

Kalo Senin jadwalnya ga terlalu berat sih , thanks God :D

~ Fisika
~ Biologi
~ Komputer
~ Seni Rupa

Biasa banget , cuma kadang males upacaranya itu loh grrrr . Mana besok ulangan IPS . Aku belom belajar sama sekali sih , ga nyambung zz . Babnya Sistem Ekonomi . Kedengerannya ga berguna banget kan . SISTEM EKONOMI . Ntar juga aku ga bakalan kerja di ekonomi-ekonomi and stuff zz .

Jadwal ulangan terkutuk itu

Minggu ini aku ulangan . Tapi ga bilang , biar bisa maiiiiin xD

go eat yourself .

xozara

Vampire Wars

2009-05-21T03:29:00.000-07:00

WOAAH i haven't been here like ages ! IMY *kisses*
Sekarang aku lagi gila main Vampire Wars di Facebook . It's addictive . Udah lama sih bikinnya , tapi tetep aja levelnya zz .

Ceritanya kita jadi vampire gitu . Terus ikutan mission-mission biar dapet uang (blood kalo disitu) . Cuma klik-klik aja sih , tapi SERU . like whoa xD ada combatnya juga , ntar dapet uang juga sih . Kalo habis naik level ada favor points , biasanya buat beli baju di avatar . I got my shmexxy straight jacket :)

Tujuannya cuma ngumpulin trophy . Ada listnya gitu , gimana dapetin trophy-trophynya . Aku belom dapet banyak sih , paling cuma yang beli-beli gitu xD males combat sama mission sih zz .

Ada locks gitu , kalo tiap hari kita main locknya kebuka satu-satu . Hadiahnya lumayan , waktu itu pernah dapet minions (apa ya , semacam investasi ?) 1.650.000 xD ahahahaa . Tapi kalo kita ga main sehari , locknya ketutup lagi :\

Ntar lagi deh , lagi main xD
xozara

If I Were A Boy

2009-05-14T20:45:00.000-07:00

Kemaren aku main ke rumah Deba . Biasalah , ngobrol , foto-foto , ngemil , jalan , girls day out betch ! Habis ngobrol macem-macem , akhirnya dia tanya .

Zar , kalo kamu jadi cowok gimana ya ?

MWAHAHAHAHA . Kadang aku pengen jadi cowok . Seru gitu keanya . Oke if i were a boy :

1. Guyliner . Iya , sekarang aku pake eyeliner but guyliner is hotter xD
2. Teased Hair . Yang kea Matthew Lush ♥
3. Piercing ! Snakebites mungkin ? Ear gauge ?
4. Vegetarian . FRANKIE FTW ! Sekarang aku juga pengen jadi vegan , tapi keanya belom kuat deh :P
5. Moshing . Serem kalo cewek moshing . Kalo cowok kan seruuuu :D
6. CAM-WHORE ! Sekarang aja udah kea gini XD
7. Mengurangi hyperness . Ga seru kan kalo cowok suka jerit-jerit 'FIERCE !' setiap ngeliat es krim ?
8. Fragile-ness . Pokoknya ga terlalu 'kuat' gitu deh :P
9. Feminine . Oke not that Jefree Star feminine tapi aku ga suka kalo terlalu cowok xD
10. I'd date other boys . Seriously , boy love is super cute :D

suh-weeeet :D
xozara

The Things We'll Never Say

2009-05-13T05:05:00.000-07:00

1.
snakes crawl out of my mouth,
sleeping, waiting silently
for me to give into them.

i toss words like rocks
across my tongue, skipping
across the lake, and we reach,
hands stretched, for the sun

but it's a shame it's all empty.

2.
listen, if you loved me, you
wouldn't try to fix me.
if you loved me, you'd paint
butterflies across the wall
to make me smile. listen,

if you loved me, you'd give
me handrails to hold onto
on the way down. you'd tell me
that right now, i'm a caterpillar
(but that caterpillars become
butterflies.) listen,
if you loved me,

you'd love me broken, too.

3.
don't speak.

sure, you could say
i'm beautiful. sure,
you could say you love me.

but if you were silent,
maybe you could connect
the dots and find my heart in
it, somehow. maybe
you could open your hands
and i'd find my dreams
in the lines.

so don't speak.
words won't ever say enough.

4.
your first mistake was meeting
me, oceans in the stars and
whispers in our ears. we crossed
boundaries as if they were just
lines, we smiled as if it was just
that easy, you memorized
the patterns in my breathing.

your second mistake was
being glad to know me.

5.
we scream in the silence
and no one hears us,

crickets chirp around us
and we pretend they're human,
we pretend they understand our pain.
maybe they dream in grayscale, too,

maybe they count secrets like
stars, and maybe their body shakes
with tormenting thoughts held in. maybe

it gets too much sometimes, and maybe
they sound inhuman when they cry, and maybe

they realize that crying only makes you empty.

6.
my heartbeats dream of their own,
ii close my eyes
and wish this all away, and maybe

i'm in wonderland, maybe i'm
secretly alice and maybe
you're the mad hatter. maybe
you love me and everything's okay,

maybe the best dreams are really
the nightmares, but haven't
you heard that you shouldn't
worry about me, darling,

because i'll sleep fine tonight.

see, bed bugs won't bother
me anymore. [i bite back.]

7.
you made the mistake of loving me,
even with my obvious mistakes
like shattered stars, but

your last mistake was leaving.

Fashion Blog ?

2009-05-11T04:11:00.000-07:00

Iya , aku ketagihan liat blog-blog fashion gitu . Kalo ga fashion blog , kadang liat-liat online store :) bikin pengen sih , tapi kan seru juga cuci mata xD pengen juga ya punya baju-baju keren gitu , sayang ga bisa zzz

Okee bagi-bagi link yaa :)

porcelinaZERO
Online jewelry shop gitu , and they have cute jewelry , oh no it's SUPER-KAWAII ! Ada yang plastic , ada yang dari clay gitu , ada yang manik-manik , aaahhh....*dies*

Von Trash
Jewelry juga , dari plastik :D apa ya , bentuknya kea lempengan plastik dibentuk-bentuk gitu . Sitenya emang ga terlalu keren , tapi kalungnya KEREEEN xD

LookBook
Fashion site andalan xD whoaa tiap hari mesti buka deh . Banyak yang upload baju-baju mereka gitu , and they're RAD !

Princess Portal
Oke ini bukan fashion blog , tapi keren ! To embrace your inner royal self :)

FaceHunter
Street fashion blog :D bloggernya hunting baju-baju orang yang bagus dijalan , difoto , TA-DA ! Masukin blog xD

Chicki
Kawaii and Decora online store :D CUTE AS HELL ! Emang ya pada bilang aku ga pantes pake yang warna-warni gini but who cares ? Aku suka :P barangnya banyaaaak banget . Baju , aksesoris , mainan ,ahhh surga....

PS. I'll keep this updated :D kalo ada yang minta link liat sini aja yaaa :)
xozara

Bring Me The Horizon : CANCELLED

2009-05-09T02:06:00.000-07:00

Tadi pagi , aku online kea biasanya , terus buka twitter . Ada link gitu dari dea . Aku buka aja .

Bring Me The Horizon regretfully announce that they will not be performing at Hanggar Teras in Jakarta, Indonesia on May 21st 2009. After weeks of negotiation the promoters have still not fulfilled their side of the contract that was previously agreed.

The band felt it was best for their fans that this decision is taken now and not let the promoters sell more tickets for a show that they are not confident will take place.

HUAAAAAH .
Rasanya pengen meledak . Iya , aku emang ga nonton , tapi kan BANGGA kalo BMTH ke sini :( Harusnya mereka jadi kesini , aku nonton , terus akhirnya aku kawin sama Oli [ i know , fangirling ] . TAPI KENAPAAA ? Promotor sialan zzz .

Kan kasian yang udah beli tiket . Apalagi yang di luar kota , udah beli tiket pesawat , udah pre-order tiketnya ,menunggu dengan penuh harapan terus di cancel . Kalo aku jadi mereka pasti sekarang rada menggila . Aku yang ga nonton aja pengen nangis , apalagi yang udah beli tiket . Ironis .

So Oli , come her soon :)
xozara

stop fucking crying , Zara .

2009-05-08T05:00:00.000-07:00

Tadi sekolah , as usual . Tapi pulang cepet gitu , jadi aku duduk-duduk aja di jemputan . Ngobrol sambil minum blue punch <3
z : dia ngomong apaan neng ?
n : pokoknya kalo temen-temennya Mbak lagi ngomongin Mbak , dia kea ga mau denger gitu .
z : ha ? maksud ?
n : ya kea mengalihkan pembicaraan gitu , terus bangga-banggain pacarnya .
z : pacarnya yang "itu" ?
n : iya Mbak . yang "itu" .
z : *nangis sampe ketiduran*

OMIGOD . Neng Isna , thankyou for sharing darling .

Maksudnya , kenapa aku ga bisa stop kea gini sementara aku tau dia lagi bahagia . I want revenge , betch . Break me , i'll break you . Mestinya aku bisa stop , tapi GIMANA ?

Kan ga seru juga kalo aku mesti gini . Tapi mau cerita ke anak-anak juga ga enak . You know , homophobes . Serem ah .

Sya , if you read this , tell me .
xozara

The ZaraZombie's Guide #1 - Mall

2009-05-05T04:42:00.000-07:00

Kemaren sabtu aku ke mall sama anti . Cuma muter-muter aja sih , ga ada duit soalnya zz . Tapi ke mall ga ada duit bisa seru juga loh :D

1. McD
Iya , mungkin McD nggak se-chic Starbucks . Tapi berhubung ga ada duit , McD harganya keren-keren XD coba makan disana dari jam 11 siang - 5 sore . Ada paket 10 ribuan (kalo ga salah) isinya ayam , nasi , sama coca-cola :D and 5 RIBUAN ! ahh Coke Float <3

2. Toko Buku

Di Gramedia yang baru-baru gitu biasanya banyak buku ga disegel . Kan lumayan juga , majalah impor kea FRUiT gitu tinggal nebeng baca XD kadang ada NYLON juga , terus buku-buku gitu juga banyak ko . Ada kursinya juga , kalo capek muter-muter ke gramed aja terus baca :)

3. Nonton Bioskop
Yes darling , nonton bioskop . Bukan nonton film , nonton BIOSKOP . Masuk aja ke 21 terus duduk-duduk . Kan banyak poster film juga gitu , buat foto-foto aja . Kalo ada foto juga poster film paling ga jelas yang lagi ada di bioskop .

judulnya ada 3 . yang main trio macan . how cute .

4. Parkiran
Tau kan parkiran mall yang muter-muter itu ? Seru loh buat jalan-jalan . Sepi , adem , bagus buat foto :D take a lot , i mean A LOT of pics , cam-whores !

5. Transport
ANGKOT definitely . Cepet , ramah lingkungan , murah lagi . How cool is that ? Sekali naik cuma 3 ribu :) lebih keren lagi kalo ada yang buat nebeng . rawr .

See ? Daripada di rumah XD

peace, love , zombie .
xozombie

music is my girlfriend <3

2009-05-03T05:28:00.000-07:00

Hari jumat kemaren aku sekolah kea biasanya . berangkat , naik jemputan , ngeluarin hp + headset . Parahnya , habis aku cari-cari headsetnya ga ada . Aku gemeteran .

Anak-anak di jemputan ga punya headsetnya Sony Ericsson . Mau di loudspeaker juga sungkan soalnya ada Afi , yaah tipikal kids these days gitu . Suka band pop indo , heboh soal cowok , famous di sekolah , rada galak . Kan ga seru juga tiba-tiba aku nyetel A Skylit Drive terus dia ngamuk-ngamuk .

Akhirnya aku putus asa ga nyetel mp3 . Rasanya sepi . Pas di jalan rada belok-belok gitu rada mau muntah . Huaaaaa mana ngantuk pula zz .

Waktu mbak Mia udah masuk jemputan , aku loudspeaker aja mp3nya . Tapi ga enak . Dia maunya A7X teruuuus . Aku maunya ganti-ganti . Dimatiin aja deh zz . Padahal kan ga enak kalo A7X terus , efeknya ga kerasa .

Iya , nyetel mp3 itu banyak efeknya . Tergantung lagunya sih .

Efek Lagu di Playlistnya Zara
~ Bring Me To Life - Evanescence : biar ga ngantuk (wake me up inside XD)
~ Thunder - Boys Like Girls : nangis instan
~ Give 'Em Hell Kid - My Chemical Romance : bikin hyper (baca: semangat)
~ Prisoner - Jeffree Star *new* : DANCE !
~ Seduction - Alesana : ironis :(
~ I Caugh Fire (In Your Eyes) - The Used : bikin inget Bert sama Gerard zz
~ Kerli - Walking On Air : optimistic :)
~ Eyes Set To Kill - Darling : REVENGE
~ Escape The Fate - The Flood : inget anak-anak nyebelin
~ Katy Perry - Waking Up In Vegas : semangat menggila !

Gitu lah listnya .

I breathe music <3
xozombie

flashback .

2009-04-28T23:20:00.000-07:00

Jadi, kemaren kerasa flashback lagi .
Aku bangun jam 7.15 (terlalu pagi emang) terus as usual , ngeliat hp .

From : immortalized .
morning zara :]

Rasanya pengen pingsan . PINGSAN . Bayangkan , mantanmu (yang kebetulan kamu masih sayaaaang zz) udah ga ngobrol sama kamu sekitar 3 bulanan terus tiba tiba sms kea gitu . SHOCK . aku bales aja kea biasa , kea ga ada apa apa . Lama lama ga seru , ga tau kenapa . mungkin cowoknya itu udah bangun zz .

Jam 11 aku sms dia lagi . Cerita soal video video gitu . I was being 'Frankie' , i was your Pansy :(

Malemnya dia sms lagi .

zar besok bisa ke rumahku ga ?

Yaah soal ngerjain tugas gitu . Ga penting emang , tapi kan ke RUMAHNYA . Aku ga mau nangis di depannya . Aku ga mau dia ngerti aku kea gini .

Ceritanya , dulu waktu kita belom putus dia manggil aku Pansy , or sometimes thweetheart :(( dia bilang aku kea Frankie . Dia bilang , "We'll be the new Frerard ." Dia bilang kita bisa jadi kea ceritanya Twilight (WTF ?) Aku inget , like it was yesterday :(

Tapi sekarang kita udah nggak kea dulu lagi . Ngobrol aja males zz . Keanya kamu juga udah bahagia sama dia . Yaah at least dia nggak lebay kea aku . Lebih bagusnya lagi dia COWOK . Kamu nggak mau kan dibilang lesbi lagi ?

Parahnya aku ga bisa lupa . Just simply can't let go . Harusnya kamu liat blog ini ya :(

Do you remember me and our beautiful affair ?
Look in my eyes and honestly tell me our love is gone .
- Seduction by Alesana

xozombie

huah .

2009-04-21T22:27:00.000-07:00

Yaaah jadi kemaren kita udah ke WBL and i'm definitely happy :D

Mungkin gara-gara malemnya udah excited duluan , alarm jam 3 nggak kedengeran . Mampus dah aku bangun jam 5 [padahal masuknya jam 6 & kalo naik jemputan aku berangkat jam 5 ] . Itu aja masih gulung-gulung di kasur . Habis mandi dan blahblah akhirnya berangkat juga jam setengah 6 and sadly tetep KEPAGIAN .

Sampe sekolah uda agak rame gitu . Di kelas lagi ribut bungkusin makanan . Sebagai anak yang baik aku ikut bantu-bantu masukin J.Co ke plastik [tapi nggak becus] . Kan ada tugas yang nanti buat dikerjain gitu sekelompok , and the worst part is KELOMPOKKU MENGENASKAN . Maksudnya , coba bayangin . Kamu sekelompok sama mantanmu yang kebetulan cewek & kalian udah 3 bulanan nggak ngobrol . Awesome .

Di bus aku duduk sama Andien sama Aho :D kita kan dreamgirls xD LOL . Bawaannya makaaaaan terus . Aku makan Lays sama permen-permen gitu . Aku bawa Pringles , buat nanti malem :D tapi di bus itu dvd yang disetel dvd karaoke alay -________- nyahh kita pake headset aja . Berasa cepet jalannya :D

Awalnya mesti ke Maharani dulu . Iya , yang goa itu zz . Mana banyak tugasnya . Gaaah habis nyontek and stuff kita ke WBL :D

Semua yang ada 'coaster'nya kita naikin . Jet coaster , roller coaster , spinning coaster , semua xD haha gitu lah . Capek . Terus kita ke foodcourt . Aku sama Andien ga dapet kursi & makanannya PEDES . Gah . Akhirnya kita beli udang goreng gitu terus makan gantian sama Yara xD disana kan ada permainan air , kayak jalan gitu ntar disemprot . Aku masuk situ rame-rame , soalnya katanya cuma disemprot dikit . Ternyata malah disiram-siram . GAAAH . Aku ganti baju deh sama Andien . Habis main air itu kita ke deket pantai . Yang lain pada main sepeda air . aku duduk-duduk aja . Gara-gara anak-anak main sepeda air lamaaaa banget , aku sama Andien ikutan . Waktu naik biasa aja , tapi NGAYUHNYA itu OMFG , ngadat -_____- capek-capek ngayuh sambil megangin rok , tiba-tiba Pringlesku JATUH . KE AIR . Pringles yang udah disiapin buat nanti :( hiks .

Jam 3 kita pulang . Cepet juga , jam 5 uda nyampe . Di bus kita foto gila-gilaan . Capek tapi seneng :D

click here for pics :]
xozombie

KTS FTW :D

2009-04-20T06:21:00.000-07:00

Oke , tadi aku bawaannya pengen tidur aja pas biologi . Topik baru soal "Plants and Its Components" . Ga penting banget emang . Ya udah lah aku dengerin aja . 80% tidur . Habis 'blah-blah-blah' itu ada yang masuk kelas .
"Zara ?"
OMG itu Oli ! Habis ini pasti aku dibawa ke Ferrari ungu terus kita kawin lari .

Oh bukan . Ketiduran emang suka bikin halusinasi zz . Ternyata yang masuk itu wali kelasku -_____- dia nyebarin pengumuman study tour :D hore !
Besok kelas 8 mau study tour ke WBL xD [ Wisata Bahari Lamongan ] Panas , di pantai gitu tapi seruuuu :D Suruh nyampe di sekolah paling lambat jam 6 zz . Oh and i got my seat fixed :] Sama Andien , deketnya Diah sama Atik . RAWRSOME !

Biar nggak repot , tadi kita bikin list barang yang mau dibawa gitu . Tapi ga ngefek juga , ribet ah . Yang penting ada HP sama headset <3 jadinya bawa kamera juga sih .

Makanan juga dong . Barusan aku ke Indomart beli makanan . Man , i bought 4 packs of Lays xD FUCK CALORY .

night ,
xozombie

scene hair

2009-04-18T20:50:00.000-07:00

Yaah , intinya sekarang aku terobsesi sama scene queens. Don't get me wrong , i'm NOT scene . Tapi keren juga sih xD

Jadi seharian aku search 'scene hair' di Google . DROP DEAD AWESOME ! Aku suka yang pink tapi ngerti lah aku nggak bakal matching pake rambut pink -_____- i've tried that . Lucky Audrey Kitching and Jeffree Star . Nyahaha terus aku cari di WikiHow 'How To Get Scene Hair' . Isinya gini :

Grow
Layer
Razor
Straighten
Dye
Accessorize

Oke . Grow done . Rambutku emang pendek tapi cukup lah :]
Layer done . I have a LOT .
Razor , mmm nope . Aku nggak nyambung zz .
Straighten effin done . I was born to hate hair straightener .
Dye , kinda . Rambutku sekarang coklat , yang dulu pink :] hihi .
Accessorize belom . Gaaah mau ditambahin apa coba ?

Oh ada lagi : TEASE .
I was like 'WTF ?' tease . Aku cari aja video tutorialnya di Youtube . Susah + kayaknya bikin rontok . Serem gitu lah . Tapi ujung-ujungnya lucu banget . Kiki Kannibal rules ! Jadi itu yang bisa bikin rambut scene queens itu pada ngembang zz . Aku coba aja ngikutin tutorial Youtube , and TA-DAA ! gyaaaa i look awesome xD *apaan sih*

try this : How To Tease Emo/Scene Hair :]

love,
xozombie

public typo #2

2009-04-18T02:50:00.000-07:00

reminds me to Ray Toro xD
di Jl. Karah, Surabaya

Love Spell

2009-04-18T01:07:00.000-07:00

Staring into starless space
Blinded by the moon's embrace
If only you were here

The only light was the candle
The only voice was my chant
Goddess, fade all my fears

You will be under my spell, under my feet
Won't hurt me, won't leave me tonight

Revenge would pay the drama
Don't you just kill the karma
Believe me we were in love

You will be under my spell, under my feet
Just stay with me, play with me tonight

~ yes darling, i do hold grudges <3

public typo #1

2009-04-16T01:16:00.000-07:00

Hore new section !
Aku suka nemu salah tulis gitu , public typos :D haha terus aku fotoin deeeeeh :]]

Butuh 3 bulanan buat ngerti ini maksudnya apa . Tiap hari lewat , tetep aja nggak nyambung . Akhirnya kita seanjem mikir itu maksudnya es batu .
di Jl. Ketintang , Surabaya
More typos soon xD

xozombie

2009-04-15T03:39:00.000-07:00

Aw dude , kenapa aku malu-maluin ?
Kemarin uts , kea biasanya . Aku juga nyontek , kea biasanya . Uda janjian gitu sama Nabilla , contekan lewat sms xD haha waktu itu ulangan IPA sama agama zz . Contekan lancar , yaah i'm lucky enough ;)

Waktu ulangannya uda buyar , aku ke kantin sama Andien . Aku beli mi [ i know , nggak bergizi ] , Andien beli soto . Ya udah . Waktu habis makan aku keluar kantin , and suddenly i saw something . Nabilla ! hore aku sapa deh .

Z : *tepuk pundaknya*
"N" : *noleh*

Aku shock setengah mati waktu dia noleh .
Nama di seragamnya DEDES , bukan NABILLA .
Haha but this is Zara , bitches !

Z : tadi liat Nabilla nggak ?
D : Nabilla yang mana ?
Z : kelas 8F .
D : oh sori aku nggak liat .
Z : *smiles* oh oke , makasih ya .

See ?
I can fucking handle the situation :D

xozombie

UTS

2009-04-12T13:13:00.001-07:00

Bagus, sekarang jam 3 pagi dan aku nggak bisa tidur . OMFG gimana mau ulangan ntar ? huaaah .

Nanti ada UTS . Iya, that sucks . Agama sama IPA lagi zz . And the worst part is , IPA KAN BIOLOGI + FISIKA . oh-em-gee . Iya, aku nggak bisa sama sekali . Yaaah at least nanti masuk siang . Sekolah cuma sebentar xD haha .

Oh ntar duduk sama kelas 7 . Aku nggak bisa bayangin juga ntar aku duduk sama siapa . Epilepsi ? Seleb ? Nerd ? Who knows . Asal bisa diajak kompromi, it's fine :D nggak seru juga kan kalo pas lagi enak-enaknya nyontek, terus sebelah kita heboh . Brrrr .

Kayaknya aku lagi agak stres .
xozombie

Pet Society Whore :D

2009-04-11T03:04:00.001-07:00

Seharian maen Pet Society di Facebook .
Haha AKHIRNYA NGECHEAT JUGA ! thankyouu windaa :D wow uangnya jadi 28 juta ! Semangat belanjaaa xD
Dulu sebelum ada internet kan ga bisa maen petsos di hape, kasian dah BabyZombie bau zz . Huah setelah bisa ngenet and luckily unlimited bisa maen petsos gila-gilaan deh xD

Uda lama aku sama aho cari cheat buat petsos. Mulai Youtube, blog orang, tanya dll. ga nemu . Katanya habis maintenance gitu semua cheat diblok . Depresi deh, pengen kaya mendadak . Aho masi mending uda level tinggi . Aku ? huuh .

Haha winda berubah hidupkuuu <3 jadi dapet 38 juta paw point deh xD ahaha sori aho, aku juga ga bisa make cheatnya, jadi ga bisa kasi tau xD ahahaha .

ILY windaaa :D

xozombie

internet FAMOUSSS :D

2009-04-09T01:02:00.000-07:00

Halo :D
Haha uda lama nggak update, habis sakit zz . Jadi hari selasa kemaren badanku panaaaas,pusing, gaah pengen meledak aja . Uda tau gitu masih maksa-maksa masuk . Di sekolah bawaannya tidur aja zz . Untung ada andien xD haha sesama anak ringkih . Pas lagi nggak ada pelajaran, tidur aja :D *ada pelajaran juga tetep* sekarang uda baikan, cuma masih pusing gitu . Gara-gara minusnya nambah kali ya ? grawr .

INTERNETNYA UDA DIPASANG !
hore nggak usah capek-capek nulis lewat hp lagi deh :D i heart internet. Naww i'm gonna make a new VF account . Mau ganti username xP ZaraZombie sounds dope . Ngeliat account ini bikin mental remuk . OH-EM-GEE ngeditnya gimanaaa ? Keren deh xP coba aku internet famous ya, pasti seru . Young, famous, and dope xD nyahahaha kea Audrey Kitching gitu deh, siapa tau bisa jadian sama Brendon :D kebanyakan scene queens itu pake Buzznet sama Myspace, tapi di Buzznet aku nggak terkenal zz . VF lebih goth gitu . Gaaaahh INSTANT FAME !

Sebenernya aku uda lama main internet . Waktu jaman-jamannya Friendster ikut juga, terakhir liat friendku uda 700an x3 ahaha hella lame . Facebook juga . Lumayan juga si, banyak comment sama ketemu temen-temen TK sama SD xD wakakakakak . VF, uda dari desember 2008, uda lumayan ngerti juga . Tapi kenapa nggak famous ? KENAPA ? Haha yang penting eksis dah xD oooh and TWITTER ! banyak seleb disini, sering update juga mereka . Berasa deket deh :D tapi mereka jarang reply, aku cuma sekali direply sama Escape The Fate x3

gaaah and HAPPY EFFIN BIRTHDAY GERARD WAY !
32 years of awesomeness x3
the more the candles, the bigger the wish :D

follow me here :]
xozombie

karma = kualat ?

2009-04-03T16:12:00.001-07:00

Apa bedanya kualat sama karma ? Aku nggak nyambung zz . Hell, tapi aku sering banget kualat . Habis ngomongin apa gitu, kena deh . Mana SERING banget . Annoying juga kan jadinya XP .
Dulu, aku mikir nama "Jessica" itu norak, tampang nyebelin dll . Eh sekarang katanya anaknya Gee mau dinamain JESSICA . Ironis banget. Itu kualat apa karma ?

Kemaren juga . Lagi mau ke kantin gitu, ketemu pacarnya Tasya yang sekarang . Iya, yang oh-so-gay dan terlaknat . Andien heboh, "HOMO ZAR !" Aku mati ketawa ngeliat makhluk itu make out sama temennya di depan kelas *WTF ?* Waktu lagi heboh-hebohnya ketawa, aku nggak liat ada tangga . Langsung dah jatuh gulung-gulung dengan lancar . Aku jerit-jerit . Andien tatapannya bego . Tragis jatuhnya . Rasanya PENGEN DITELAN BUMI . Mana lagi rame zz . Itu karma apa kualat ? Kenapa aku yang kena ? KENAPA ? Dasar terkutuk .

Pernah denger nggak, katanya kalo kebanyakan ketawa ntar nangis ? Maksudnya kalo kita seharian ngakak mati-matian, pasti ntar ada yang bikin nangis . Aku sering XP
Beberapa minggu kemaren, aku beli bukunya Raditya Dika *hails* ya udah sore itu aku ketawa sampe mampus . Sampe nggak bisa bangun . Malemnya aku buka Facebook . Ngeliat "Anaztasya Nanda A is now in a relationship with Enz M Mirza", aku pengen meledak . DUARR . Nangis mendadak, heboh sampe pagi .
Waktu SD juga pernah . Lupa kenapa pokoknya seharian bawaannya ngakak terus . Ternyata malemnya nenekku meninggal . Itu karma, kualat, apa kebetulan ? Who knows . Mungkin aku mesti lebih banyak ibadah ya XD

*smiles*
xozombie

deritaku .

2009-04-01T08:09:00.001-07:00

Capek nangis daritadi . Back in action XD

Ngomong-ngomong Escape The Fate, tadi tweet aku dibales ! bangga rasanya XD padahal itu ga niat, iseng "listening to @EscapeTheFate ♥ at skool," eh dibales "Fuck yeah, rock that shit !" *cuma dikit* . Sebenernya ga jelas juga siapa yang bales, tapi ada EscapeTheFate gitu :D ahahaha .

Tadi aku mati bosen pas IPS . Bukan mati, sekarat lah . Nah pas uda ngantuk gitu tiba-tiba dipanggil suruh jawab soal . Dipilih gitu sama Tio XP histeris deh . Bisa juga akhirnya XD habis jawab kan juga disuruh milih siapa yang jawab soal lanjutannya, Yara sama Andien bilang "WEM ! PILIH WEM !" yang aku turutin juga . KALIAN SESAT .
Aku uda terlanjur jawab "WEM" dengan mantap, gurunya ngeliatin dengan tampang bingung. Nah aku baru nyadar kalo WEM itu Wahyu Eko Mulyono DISINGKAT . Pantes nggak ngerti zz .

Oh tadi satu sekolahan mati listrik . Aku mati kepanasan sama anak-anak . Di luar, bawa buku tulis, kipas-kipas . MANTAP . Para anak epilep malah main softball-pake-sapu-dan-penggaris di kelas . Mereka diberkahi Tuhan, apa nggak kepanasan ? Bersyukurlah, epilep . Finally, anak-anak suruh masuk kelas sama guru . uda panas, BAU lagi zz . Dasar nggak higienis .

Olahraga tadi lari Jawa-Bali 3X . Iya, Jawa-Bali . Katanya biar disiplin gitu, bullshit XP . Aku lari aja sama Andien . Puteran ke 2 sama Hany, ngegosip . Andien cerita, katanya Agnes Monica jogging sambil nyanyi biar suaranya kuat . Akhirnya kita ngesot sampe sekolah sambil nyanyi Hot N Cold .

growl, scream, laugh,
xozombie

not loving you is HARDER THAN YOU KNOW :(

2009-04-01T04:13:00.001-07:00

"Baby don't talk to me, i'm trying to let go. Not loving you is harder than you know."
~ Harder Than You Know by Escape The Fate

Aku mesti nangis tiap denger lagu ini *touchy*. Jadi inget mantan :C Namanya Tasya . Iya, dia cewek . I'm attracted to both boys and girls, you know ;] She was my first, effin first love . Dan aku masih sayang dia :(
Dulu kita cuma temen, partner in crime . Sebangku, nyontek, nyetel mp3, maen internet, menggila bersama . BFF gitu lah :D Terus dia jadian sama kakak kelas, he sucks XP tapi aku diem aja, haha emang cuma temen . Waktu dia putus juga tenang aja, nggak ada apa-apa zz . Nah lama-lama mulai ngerasa gitu deh XD tanggal 30 Oktober [ coba 31 biar bareng Frankie :D ] dia nembak aku . It was the best day EVER . We were in love and happy :D . Beberapa bulan kemudian kita marahan . Rawr terus kata anak-anak dia PENGEN BALIKAN sama mantannya yang oh-so-gay itu zz . DUAARR .
Serasa kiamat . Really, beneran kaget . Habis *hehehe* ngehack dan bongkar-bongkar account-accountnya, ternyata BENER . Aku mati merana . Marah && nggak percaya, aku minta putus . Tanggal 10 Januari .
Mulai hari itu kita biasa aja, temenan tapi nggak kayak dulu, *berasa Paris && Nicole XD* suka diem-dieman . Sampe akhirnya dia pindah tempat duduk . DUARR . Kita jarang ngobrol lagi :( Hell, malesinnya pas dia ngajak balikan . Tapi OMFG, minta macem-macem. Nggak boleh suka niruin Oli . Nggak boleh over . Nggak boleh blablabla . Hello miss, you're not my mom ! Nggak jadi balikan deh zz . Kita nggak pernah ngobrol lagi sampe sekarang, && dia uda balikan sama mantannya itu. ARE YOU HAPPY NOW ? Iya, aku tau dia nggak berperasaan, sadis, suka manfaatin and the worst part is i STILL love her :(

"I'm gonna miss you 'cause i love you baby," suaranya Craig kebayang-bayang zz .

*cries*
xozombie

nyontek .

2009-03-31T08:00:00.001-07:00

Tadi aku ketauan nyontek. Hell yes, nyontek. Mana bahasa daerah lagi zz.

Habis istirahat soalnya dibagiin. Sebagai anak yang buta hanacaraka, aku uda panas dingin gitu liat 5 soal full basa Jawa. Dikerjain aja lah sebisanya [ + ngintip dikit ]. Kelar nomer 1-3, aku uda muter-muter cari jawaban nomer 4-5. Suruh nulis gitu lah. Nah waktu lagi heboh-hebohnya cari jawaban, si Juariah teriak, "AMALIA ! KERJAKAN DI DEPAN !"
Mampus. Reputasiku hancur. Mana nggak bisa nyontek kalo di depan. Aku maju aja, duduk di lantai, pura-pura nulis gitu. Shitshitshit.
Juah tetap menatapi dengan tatapan aku-pengen-makan-kamu itu. Aho, Andien, Diah dkk ngeliatin aku dengan tampang kasian xD
Aku coba tanya Tya [ ILY betch ! ] diem-diem gitu. Juah nggak liat. Tapi Tya juga ngomongnya ga jelas xD. Soal nomer 5 kan suruh ganti dari hanacaraka-latin, Tya bisik-bisik "Siswaaa....blabla...ulangaaan...blabla...". Aku nggak jelas dengernya [ maklum jarak jauh + sedikit masalah pendengaran ] Daripada bingung nyuruh Tya ngulangin terus, aku jawab aja SISWA ULANGAN. Done :D
Nomer 5 aku kosongin. Emang buta hanacaraka sih xP
Waktu bel langsung aja aku kumpulin. Pasrah. Bersyukur hari ini ulangan uda beres :D
Horeeee !

later,
xozombie

hello world :D

2009-03-31T03:08:00.000-07:00

halo :]
horeee akhirnya bisa bikin blog juga. daritadi ada aja yang salah zz. maklum dari hp.

i'm totally new here :D
ahahaha ntar post yang banyak lah.

my life ain't that effin interesting, just an ordinary cotton candy life :D

xozombie